Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Time : 2:29 am

fell asleep while having my dinner.
woke up, showered and wanted to finish up my journal
but the sleepiness is starting to kick in again.
should I go sleep?

=/

Date : Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Time : 12:41 am

deadline after deadline after deadline
kill me pls

come on Vicson, hang in there. just another couple of more weeks.
sigh.

Date : Saturday, July 25, 2009
Time : 9:28 pm

call after call after call after call
time and time again, I'm getting the same response.

Date :
Time : 5:53 pm

sitting all alone in the sanctuary
all the thoughts just running through my mind
no mood to get anything

audio theory test on monday
deadline on wednesday

the work is there for me to do.
the stress is there for me to stress about
but somehow, right now, I'm just all ignorant about it

Date : Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Time : 6:42 pm

just when I thought I could have a breather after finishing Film Hist
everything just starts piling up again.
hate this period of time in school, it just seems like work will take forever to be completed.

Date :
Time : 4:27 pm

I'm just struggling to concentrate in class
my mind is just in a blank right now.

I just don't get it.

Date : Saturday, July 18, 2009
Time : 1:16 am

1 months time
end of Semester 1
which means all my assignments should be submitted by then, with the exception of Cam&Light which is due on the Friday of that particular.
goodbye to the figure 1
hello to the figure 2

I guess I should be looking forward to it.
another trip to KL this year; and I hope I'll have something I really want.

Date : Friday, July 17, 2009
Time : 1:06 am

sick since last saturday.
fever at 6am. lasting from Saturday till Tuesday.
One day completion of my podcast.
Went to school on Wednesday to submit only to be screwed by that ass.
Nauseous and breathless while walking to take the train, while walking up the stupid hill.
Sorethroat got worse on Wednesday after I came back from school.
Coughing my lungs out.
causing inflammation to my throat.

missed 4 days of school. all FMS modules
and now tomorrow there is IS
why of all modules, IS modules
kill me pls.

Date : Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Time : 1:30 am

its 1:30am
and I've yet to start recording,
omgoodness, if its not over then what it is?

I'm dead. there goes my sleep.
hello garageband and final cut
and when its all completed, hello itunes
and the sunrise(i hope not)

Date : Monday, July 13, 2009
Time : 10:46 pm

doc gave me a one day MC
how smart is that.
its over.

Date :
Time : 10:05 pm

have not been feeling well since friday night
fever since saturday up till now
podcast and wiki have remained stagnant
unable to get an extension
worrying about my 50%
sigh

Date : Friday, July 10, 2009
Time : 11:32 pm

I think I'm running a fever.
):

Date :
Time : 10:03 pm

somehow, just lost all motivation to do my work.
I mean, its like the results that I'm getting is just not reflecting on the amount of work I put in
sigh.

Date : Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Time : 3:19 pm

sitting in front of my station inside the Non-Linear Editing Lab
the timeline and footage - staring at me and vice versa
somehow, I just do not feel like editing.
but the assembly is due next week and I'm only half way done.
scene 7 out of 15 scenes.
great.

Date : Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Time : 12:40 am

the lack of sleep is just killing me.
I just get the sort of feeling that I'm going to fall real sick soon;
inside of my throat is tight, nose being sniffy(if there's such a word) and all
and I think my eyesight is failing on me, seems like I've got to strain them at times;
I guess there goes my perfect eyesight, there goes me 6 6 eyesight;
and I am not happy about losing it, after for so many years.
):

SocPsyc test tomorrow or rather later on.
secretly hoping and praying that it'll be the same paper as last year
just can get into in now
going to sleep.

seems like I've been sleeping earlier and earlier.
the other day was before 2 and today's before 1.
oh wells

goodnight.

Date : Sunday, July 05, 2009
Time : 9:31 pm

stress is just all over me right now.
the amount of assignments that have been piled up, not that I want to.

Blame my unlucky hands to draw week 13 and 14 to complete the 'wikipedia' and podcast for Film History.
I've yet to watch the movie for the wiki, and its in black and white. kill me please.
been doing the research for my podcast, but what I really need, I still have not gotten it;
and that's movies of my director. the school library has got only 2 pathetic movie of the director I'm doing it.
I will have to drop by esplanade library real soon.

Assembly for the Final Project for Non-Linear Editing is due this week's tutorial,
and I'm only at scene 6 out of 15, damn.

I've got to start recording for Audio Post Production, and I've yet to find someone to help record,
and also I do not know if I'll be able to work with my project-mate.
Why can't they make the assignment individual? sigh

Camera and Lighting.
Got back my results for the first assignment,
and honestly, I'm not sastified with it.
the reasons for me not being sastified, I shall not say.
either ways, here is my lecturer's comments:

You have some good shots here and over-all your proect looks great but its missing something - a sense of location. For the most part, you've taken a series of photos of building. Most of them turned out quite well(especially the various shot of the night skyline) but I would have liked to see more then that. The few photos that deviate from that trend such as the scaffolding next to the rundown building are interesting but they are few and far between. A wide shot if a building can make a good landscape shot but you lose the location itself and what makes it unique. Also, you need to develop your perspective on your subject and make sure it comes through.

Prep/Paperwork: B
Execution: A
Creativity: B
Overall: B+

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Saw sheena at the bus stop while I was making my way down to cineleisure this afternoon. ended up talking to her.
she made the comment that I looked very tried, not enough rest.
and as I think of it right now and what I told her in response;
my life is so much like a cycle right now. school starts at 9 for me everyday except friday which starts at 10. which means I have to be up by latest 7, and its like every night I sleep at around 2-230. If possible, 130. with so much work to do, I hardly even have the time to do them, let alone have sufficient sleep. Catching some sleep when I'm supposed to be doing work, and it has become a habit for me get sleep on my journey to and back from school.

FMS is taking my life away.
FMSS is taking even more of it away - but I so badly need the cca points.

Honestly, right now, I feel that like has been such a drag.
So many things to do and so little time.

damn, can someone just sponsor me the money to get a new dslr and the lens that I want?
I will like just go freelance right away.
sigh.
Vicson, work for it; work for it.