Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Monday, May 26, 2008
Time : 3:45 pm

alright. here are the replies for the tags, which i know are seriously overdue.

sorry about it.

Chingying: it depends on what time I leave school? most of the time around evening? yup. oh! saying that I am cute ah?? hahahaha!! XP

SELENE: oh okay. now it doesn't keep on disconnecting already right? *waves back??*

-: who are you? you want to tag at my blog, leave your name. the answer to your question, decide yourself.

nana: yeah. alrights! thanks!

mel: thanks mel! so far still okay, i guess.

Jer: yeah, I know what you mean. haha. alrights. yup, I am chilling now. and yeah, the victim exposed herself!! lol!

ALYSSA: hahaha! you gave yourself away!! lol!

Janice: my ipod's okay already leh, and monday's over already and I still owe you the photos. haha. aiyer, must be proud that you can't focus what, which resulted in you not being able to capture.haha. oh okay. yeah i know what you mean on your latest tag, but some how, it isn't as simple as it seems. thanks anyways.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, May 23, 2008
Time : 8:14 pm

terribly disgusting

I guess that would be the phrase to describe today.

my worse day in NP, period.

really, so many things can just happen in one day.

parents came back in the wee hours of the morning. the usual snoring of my dad that I had this morning confirmed it.

had to cancel breakfast with Yanxiu due to the shoot that I had to redo.

shoot started off not too bad, struggling a little bit though, cause there were less stuff and people to shoot as compared to thursday, which is my actual lesson day. until it happened.

is it a jinx or what, you decide for yourself, but FM 10 has caused me a whole lot of trouble.

consider it 4 rolls of film gone.

fatal fall from the table.

I seriously had no idea what happened, it just happened. a split second thing. up to you to decide if you want to believe me or not. somehow, it just got off the table and landed on the floor. the lenses detached from the body, even though the ring that holds the lenses to the body was still attached to the body. aperture ring came out.

to put it short, the whole camera was gone. as good as useless.

broke down completely after writing the report and everything. I felt terrible, and the worse thing was that they did not really believe me on what happened. I mean like who would want to break a camera deliberately? especially when I have been using the camera for my assignment, for my workshop. Like as if I have a lot of money to spare.

Saving Grace played repeatedly. I just needed to be alone with my ipod for that short while. It worked, mood was slightly better. didn't really think much about it during lunch, or rather tried not to think about it.

wasn't really myself during studio production, making mistakes with camera, losing my usually dependable concentration.

nothing personal, but my classmates, its so weird, sometimes its okay, and yet at times, its not okay.

received another hugh blow after class. came home empty handed, without any camera. the booking didn't get through, which is ridiculous cause I have the booking ID. this meant that I have to borrow it from some where, any where. practically rush through my shooting for the whole weekend, cause project's due on Tuesday, and with my podcast not started, story-boarding not started also, wordpress not updated. I am really running short of time.

you got me thinking again, after lunch,

after you made that statement before I stepped out of the lift.

I thought hard about it, during my workshop,

during the small breaks that I had in between.

I mean its like, it was two happened two years ago.

things have happened, things have changed,

feelings aren't around anymore.

I wouldn't say that is not possible,

but its just very unlikely.

thank you again.

while on my way back,

I was looking through the msgs that you sent me after what happened.

they helped me a whole lot,

more then what I could have expected.

and also for the help in my assignment,

for today and yesterday, even though its like,

should I say,

futile now.

I just got to say this,

well, in a way, I guess you really made my day.

thank you. :)

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Time : 4:15 pm

Thank You Lord.

I needed that.

-edited

it didn't seem as bad as it was.

Thank You Lord, really thank you

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 12:45 pm

is it just them or me?

am I keeping too much to myself?

I mean haven't I been myself these 5 weeks in school.

Someone tell me I have been doing just that, please.

perhaps it's really just me.

perhaps it's the age gap.

perhaps it's just them, and not me.

perhaps perhaps perhaps

no point. seriously no point with all the perhaps.

some how, its the same when it comes to if. like if only.

Meaningless! Meaningless! Everything is meaningless.

Ecclesiastes 12:1

Is that really it?

That everything is meaningless?

the moment I opened the Bible earlier on, it was opened was at Ecclesiastes, between chapter 2-5 and the first phrase that caught my attention was A Time for Everything.

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear dow and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a tie to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,

a time tom keep and a time to throw,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-9

and I got reminded of a conversation that I had with a friend yesterday evening, reminding her that there are different times for different things and I was thinking on the bus on my way back from soccer, that sometimes I am able to give people advice, reminding them of things, but sometimes I just can't see myself applying what I tell people to myself in my own life.

That is something that I have got to start doing, I guess.

*sigh!* oh wells.

guess it isn't a case of when already

but of what happens next

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Time : 12:32 pm

photo shoot yesterday was relatively okay.

was out for 5 solid hours and I only finish one roll of film, that meant 36 photos only.

hopefully they will turn out well.

payer laber estate for the first 1.5 hours. the remaining time was traveling time and at Airport T3.

missed quite a couple of shots. most probably I will loan the camera again this weekend, got another roll of film, probably 24 shots and get my missing shots, and also shoot near church. realized that it is quite a nice place to shoot at. see how it goes, my schedule and all.

shoot at night with janice was good. the jump shots that couldn't make it, the auto focusing that did not work for her. got a couple of nice scenery shots. evening and night. such a pity that I could not find a tripod, cause my tripod is at my dad's office and he's like in Australia. oh wells.

perhaps my decision to load the second roll into the camera back fired, cause I still have over 10 shots left, and its after taking 5 shots while on my way to school just now. my feeling is that half of the shots in the second film won't turn out good. =/

I have no idea why but somehow, coming to school everyday is such a bore for me now. No, its not that the modules that I am taking are boring, as a matter of fact, I am starting to enjoy them, taking each assignment, project one at a time. Perhaps it is the people around me, or more bluntly, my classmates. after all, I have let it out, to a few people only. maybe 2-3, and if you are 'lucky one of them', you know what it going on, then good. if not, keep it that way. not knowing some stuff that are not meant for you will do you good, as compared to knowing things that you shouldn't be knowing.

hopefully the last minute photoshop tuition will do me good, otherwise I am planning to pon the test tomorrow. okay I was kidding about it, but really, I do not know anything about photoshop.

can't wait for soccer later on. some how it has become my only source of relaxation now.

doesn't is seem ironic

you didn't want to send it, then why bother typing it?

no i am not doubting it, it just got me thinking

i guess its just the matter of when

now that I am almost certain about it.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, May 18, 2008
Time : 11:54 pm

busy. just too busy to update; with all the assignments and projects piling up.

taking them one at a time though.

seems like it's working, cause for the first time this week, I completed my wordpress before the weekend.

Photography Project - tomorrow, hopefully.

Art & Design(Assignment and Project) - start on it the moment I am done with my photography

Studio Production Quiz on Tuesday - yet to study. hopefully I will have the time

just a brief update, I guess.

overslept on Thursday, cause had a late night on Wednesday and my mac died on me in the middle of the night, so my alarm didn't ring. so in the end didn't go school. completed some of my work though.

waste of my time going to school early on friday, didn't even do anything much. so much for making me wake up at 8am when I could sleep in till around 10am. some how, I feel that I am being left out of the whole thing. nvm. like what I have said. I will do what I am assigned and supposed to do, simple as that. only 5 weeks have passed since term started and I have been backstabbed already. once is enough, not to mention one and a half. don't push your luck too far.

test studio production. it went great, as compared to my first time, which was last week. I thought of going for the recording straight away, that was how confident I was. please note that it isn't complacency, but in the end had a run through once.

failed to do get any work done, even though I wanted to get some done. ended up going to church to help take photos for a event, some Parents' Day thingy. but apparently, Nat was there taking, so I didn't really take a lot. Instead, I was playing with the manual settings and stuff. once again, learnt new things from Nat. got a ride home, ended up crapping online. apparently went off at 1:30am, but somehow I continued surfing the net till around 3:30 am before I slept. =/

sleeping late meant waking up late. so in the end cabbed down to church, with bro. service seemed longer then usual though, no idea why. cell after service. 10-ed back to Tampines Central. so finally bought my pencils and sketch book. bought it for project use though, gonna wait for my parents to be back before I get a smaller one, cause I bought an A3 size sketch book.

dinner was great. literally home-cooked. pork chop, potatoes and stir fried mushrooms.

it feels good to cook for yourself to eat, once in a little while.

note that statement, Alyssa. haha!

no idea why, but it took me quite a while to get these typed out. oh wells, got to be at interchange small macs by 9:30 am, tomorrow morning. hopefully all goes well, you will know what I mean if you know what I mean. first its 1, then its 2, then 3 and now?? it may be 5. -.-

*rolls eyes, literally*

oh wells.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Time : 11:01 pm

kinda lazy to really update day by day, so I think I will just mention the few things that are worth mentioning, that have happened for the fast few days.

-Greatest Gift is a great song, still prefer Saving Grace though!

-struggled a little with my storytelling assignments

-sent parents off, holiday at Tasmania and my dad didn't take the dslr, which means its still safely at home with me

-please note this. you sms ask-iris, you DO NOT call ask-iris! lol!!!

-soccer on tuesday

-late for school again on Wednesday. please kindly blame the rain and bus services

-scored not too bad for quiz

-saw true colours for some of my classmates, again! I have nothing much to say.

-handicap when ipod died on me

-one positive thing, i am not the only christian in my class. now that's comforting!

i am still....undecided.

yes or no?

i really do not know

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, May 09, 2008
Time : 11:34 pm

wanted to keep a clean record on my time management, but it wasn't the case.

cause apparently, the clock in the studio is 4 minutes faster then my handphone time. I reached on at 1:15, according to my handphone, but not the clock. so I was considered absent.

class itself was okay. just that I don't really agree on how the discussion for my group is being proceeded. 4 people doing the work of at least 6 people? it makes no sense at all. like totally. oh wells. guess I just do my job and let it be. no point opposing it.

rotational exercise was okay as usual. I got director for the second round and I screwed it up for like 2 times? but after that managed to get it right. its stressful, well at least to me, partially because the class could only be dismissed if the whole show went okay, and I played an important part. I was kinda unprepared though.

seen some more true colours of some of my classmates. nothing much to say.

its really tough being the only christian,i think, in my class.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, May 08, 2008
Time : 11:12 pm

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Finally got my Macbook’s widget alarm working. Its really effective, just the introduction of Free by Planetshakers woke me up, almost instantly. But the truth was I didn’t have enough sleep. No idea why, because I slept quite early last night. Like before 12:30. Set my alarm to 6:20, but I ended up sleeping in till around 6:45. Left home on time though, and the most frustrating thing is I reach Clementi at 8:20. Its like it took me just 45 minutes to reach Clementi. I am so going to sleep in till around 7 next week, and see if I will be late.

If you know me well enough, not enough sleep for me would mean being moody, frustrated and easily irritated, to the maximum, no matter who you are. Trust me, even my parents and brother get it from me when I am in that kind of state. Apparently, that was what one of my classmates got from me, like literally. I just totally told my classmate to shut up when I was asking another of my classmate a question when she told the classmate I was talking to shut up. Be grateful that its just a ‘shut up’, like seriously.

Photography workshop was fun, finally got the chance to shoot in film. But having to cramp two lessons worth of work into one is just too much to ask for. As the result, the whole class had to stay back after Intro to Film to finish up on the work given for Photography. Yet another presentation for Intro to Film, guess it was quite okay, cause with the group mates that I had, life was easier!! Kinda slacked after taking finish the photos and returning the cameras.

Well, apparently, I am in the train right now heading to Bugis to meet my parents and their friend & family for dinner. And now I come to think of it, it has been more then one month since my immediate family had dinner together. The last time we had dinner was about one week before NPSU FOC.

Currently, I am so hooked on Saving Grace by Planetshakers. It is like the most played song in my itunes, and considering the fact that I only got the CD a mere 21 days ago, and including during my travels to and back to school and church, I think it has been played for more the 80 times. Great song, simple lyrics for the whole song, and I especially like this part, when it goes like ‘All I long to do is worship. All I long to do is bring You praise, for nothing compares to You my Saving Grace. All I long to do is worship, All I long to do is bring You praise for nothing compares to You my Saving Grace.’ I mean its like simple lyrics but yet so powerful, the message just gets across. Yeah, I know Hillsongs London has been out for quite a while already, but I have yet to listen to it, so I am looking forward to getting it either tomorrow or Saturday.

Talking about Saturday. Looks like there wont be any Photography Club outing, since I heard from Atiqah that it’s twice a month, and it would mean that the next outing would be on the 19^th, which means my camera won’t be around, because my parents will be going to Australia on the 14^th till 23^th, if I did not remember wrongly and my father wants to borrow my camera, in which I have agreed to lend him, as I was thinking that the Photography Club outing is once every fortnight. Oh wells, guess I got to do without my camera just for that outing.

Reached back not too long ago. Dinner was great. Has been quite awhile since I had steamboat and I finally laid my hands on, currently my favourite dessert, mango sago from Ah Chew, at Bugis. Think it has been close to 4 odd months since I last had it!

But it’s still in my refrigerator, right now, along with my yam with sago. I can hear them calling me. Maybe I shall respond to them later on!

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

APPARENTLY, it was uniform day for my class today, but apparently, not everyone wore, only 5 out of 16 people wore full uniform and I was one of them. First thing the moment I reached school, I got pissed. Like seriously, got it off my chest already, so no much details shall be mentioned, except that you yourself are one, studying in Singapore. Take that; its simple as that, whether you want to accept it or not. It is a fact. I doubt you will ever read this though. Like whatever~!

Movie watched during Intro to Film was great. It managed to keep me awake, and with the constant ‘spot checks’ by Zoe and Euminl, messing up my hair, making sure that I didn’t fall asleep. Got a new combo for my sandwich. Tuna mayo plus ham and cheese. Ordered it twice and I got the cashier blur. May I should order until the moment they see me, I just mention ‘usual’ and they know what I mean. Doubt its possible though. Haha. Well that was what got me through the whole day.

Storytelling was okay till a certain extent. Got a little pissed though, for some particular reason. If you know about it, then good for you, if not don’t bother trying to find out. New assignments, which means more stress. I was like telling my brother just now (Thursday during dinner), I am damn afraid that I will fail my Storytelling. I am hoping that it won’t happen though. Well, I guess I just got to put in my very best-est effort in the assignments and module and leave all the rest to God and I am sure He will deliver the results for me.

Art & Design was crap! Totally wasted my time, cause the lecturer was going super fast and he is damn boring. Going through three out of four important techniques within 2 hours. Its like 30 minutes into the lecture, I could not catch up and I just simply stopped whatever I was doing and I just listened, trying my best to absorb everything. He’s like going to go through the last technique and just revise a little on the first three techniques, and apparently there will be a test on it the following week, and there is no lecture notes or anything like that. How great is that?? Sigh! Yes, I know I just sighed!

Bible study for CF. Short session of Praise and Worship after that. Its going to be Bible Study for the whole of this month, and I need to find my missing bible! I have no idea where it is. I would not say its lost, I would prefer to put it as I misplaced it!

Half my stress was gone the moment I alighted from the bus. It just seemed like I left them on the bus. Lol. Dinner-ed out as there was no food at home and no one at home. Okay, not exactly dinner-ed out, or rather I bought back, only to eat it 1 hour after I reached home. The sprint to catch 22 kinda ate my appetite up, caused me to feel a little nauseous while on the bus. The Snapple did me no favour.

Maybe I will consider getting my dinner for Wednesdays at Hans’.

See how it goes.

maybe another week would just confirm it

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Time : 2:53 pm

Walking into a classroom full with sixteen, seventeen years old.

And me? Turning nineteen this year. I felt awkward.

But deep down, I knew that I did not step into the wrong class.

With all these people younger then me; what could happen?

Anything. Anything was the answer.

Simply that.

How true the short story is.

some are just so immature, their way of thinking is still so narrow minded.

the way that some of them answer/responds to questions/comments still has the mentality of a secondary school student. Like come on, you are in poly now, no longer in secondary school.

Grow up please!

No, I am not saying that I am all grown up and stuff, but I know how I should carry myself for different scenarios.

I guess I just got to learn to take it and swallow it.

After all, I am stuck with them for this whole semester.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, May 05, 2008
Time : 11:25 pm

there goes my much needed sleep again.

tomorrow is meant for sleeping in maybe till 9 plus but it won't be the case.

studio production meeting at 10 am tomorrow. which means I have home at 8 am, which means that I have to wake up latest by 7:30 am.

this is so irritating.

having woken up at 5:15 am this morning cause I had to be in school by 7:20 am, like what I have mentioned earlier on.

just pure irritating.

left school at 3:45 pm, met my brother to get the house key, new way home.

5-ed to bedok reservoir, 22-ed back home.

only to reach home at around 7:30 pm.

it took me nearly 4 hours to get home, I nearly died and it was peak hour.

just imagine all the people on the bus and stuff.

on the overall, today's quite alright. =)

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 2:12 pm

only managed to sleep at around 2:30 am this morning.

and having to wake up at 5:30 am only for me to be waking up at 5:15 am.

3 odd hours of sleep.

presentation was postponed to the following week and its like I woke up so early for nothing.

watched half of I Not Stupid. some discussion after that.

went to ourspace as usual. was doing my work, only for me to fall asleep.

for about 1 hour plus but it did me good.

managed to finish up on my weekly post. got stuck on my ending for 15 odd minutes.

up till now I still have no idea how to do the People Watch and its due on Wednesday. sigh!

maybe that's why I look so stress, hopefully that is the reason and not some other reason.

plenty of chance, but some how.... I really do not know.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 1:28 am

time now. 1:28 am

and here I am still wide awake.

I really wonder how I am going to wake up at 5:30 later on.

have to be in school by 7:20 for some final preparation for my group's presentation later on.

all thanks to someone who volunteered to be the first group to volunteer and it meant we only had 2 weeks to prepare and stuff.

great, and he keeps on emphasizing on wanting to get an AD.

I mean its like, come one, its Interdisciplinary Studies. yes, its important, but as compared to the modules that we are taking for our course? Not THAT important.

oh wells.

its a fact that my group's presentation is later on

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, May 04, 2008
Time : 8:05 pm

been a couple of days since I last updated. some how just didn't have the mood to do so.

plenty of thoughts have been going through my mind these few days.

uncertainty would be the word to describe it all.

Friday, May 02, 2008

lost my house keys again! i remember placing them on the table top on wednesday when I reached home. I did not go out on thursday, so by right the keys should still be there, but it wasn't the case. guess I will duplicate another pair soon.

studio production workshop was fun. group discussion for the interview show, then did three times of the rotational exercise. Was the host for the first time, so as usual, without much rehearsal, I started to talk faster and faster as the show went on. eventually managed to get one round without any hiccups, as in for everyone, the crew and all. assistant director for me in the second round, made a hugh error but was corrected. shan't elaborate on it. third round, was suppose to be the flipper, to change the cards that we were using to shoot, but I was the extra flipper, so I ended up slacking, taking a couple of pics of of the studio during the recording. kinda looking forward to next friday.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

got myself some laughter during lunch. I really wonder what makes people dislike each other, even when nothing has been done for some reasons that I think is ridiculous and very immature. hah! oh wells, what to do? some people are just like that.

went down to church after that, for music practice.

some how, I started thinking about what happened last saturday, in church.

and what you told me the other night.

okay. had dinner outside church after music practice. started on my weekly post while on the way home, after got some inspiration from nelson.

continued doing my work when I reached home, but ended up talking online, till quite late.

some how I just could not get to sleep even though I was feeling a little tired, and I knew that I had to be up by 8:30 the following morning, as I had to play drums for the Hokkien Service.

only managed to get to sleep at around 2:15 am.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

like what I mentioned earlier, I was suppose to wake up at 8:30, but I overslept. only got up at 10:30. decided to cab down to church, cause my brother and I would definitely be late if we took the bus, and we were both on duty. like as usual. hah.

P&W was not too bad. luckily I made the decision to use my heavier sticks for the worship songs, while I used my lighter Jazz stick for praise, otherwise my sticks would have flown out of my hand, for like don't know how many times.

lunched out with flighters was great! had a good time.

mee siam, curry chicken, french loaf toast, cinnamon mini donuts, brownie with ice cream. we had it all!!

headed back to church, while some of them left.

had a mini jamming/recording session with evangeline, tricia, my brother and myself, by using my mac. the sound was good, but I did not save the tracks as there were a couple of wrong notes played. ended up taking photos and taking super crappy and retarded video, using photo booth.

left church at about 6pm. wanted to duplicate the house keys at interchange, but apparently the person was not working today, so got to wait for another day. or maybe I can get it settled tomorrow, when I go down to find my brother at his work place. see how it goes, as it depends on what time I leave school and how fast I finish my half-finished work. guess that's about it. catching the Liverpool match at 11pm later on.

every decision made has its pros and cons

I am in a dilemma right now

should I or should I not?

I really do not know

hoping to make up my mind soon

real soon

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, May 01, 2008
Time : 11:06 pm

-nys!-™ : I am good!! hah. how are you?? alright, i linked you back already, alright?? sorry laaa. =(

SELENE : oh okay. thank you. heh.

Chingying : 青!! neither have i seen any streak of green when i pass by your school. haha. nvm, i am used to your randomness already. haha

Jer : haha. yeah. i guess so. looking forward to it. haha

ALYSSA : ya! haha. yeah, its like the best picture of the day. hah. no problem!! =)

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson