Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Sunday, July 27, 2008
Time : 10:40 pm

was reading through my archives last night.
memories. be it happy, sad, stress or whatever it is.

until I started reading december and January's post.

when everything happened back then.

saying 'I don't know' would not help the situation. that was what I wrote back then.

and here just a couple of days ago, I am saying exactly the same statement.

all I want is another chance. start over again.

but is all hope lost?

tell me its not.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, July 25, 2008
Time : 9:29 am

you have got it all wrong.

all mixed up.

I want to talk things out and I meant every word that I said.

Date : Sunday, July 20, 2008
Time : 12:38 am

like what I said.

Kids now adays - beyond comprehension.

look, if its something stupid would you do it?

and to makes things look more stupid. you mentioned that its stupid and you are still suggesting it, keen on making it happen.

how stupid can you get. like seriously.

or is that that you have a deprived childhood? - tell me, and i will try to comprehend. maybe you could gain some sympathy along the way.

three words.

peer evaluation form

wow. that is sure alarming

to that extend??

enough said.

no longer the same group.

I can assure you that.

enough said.

hmm, I think I just wasted 10 mins of my life typing out all those stuff.

goodnights.

FLIGHTer^17 Vicson

Date : Friday, July 18, 2008
Time : 11:29 pm

by my high standard of controlling audio, it was a major screw up today, in the late afternoon.

perhaps I was just stressing myself out, after all the starting of the show had no audio at all, and everyone in the control room was staring at me.

Director, Assistant Director, Vision Mixer, CG operator and my lecturer were all staring into the audio room, at me when there was no sound coming out from the host's mic. there was nothing I could do. the patching was done correctly, it wasn't muted, the pan ann mix buttons were down. there was seriously nothing I could do, because the host did not switch on the mic. guess that shook me a little.

it was bad enough, until the whole show under-ran, which means marks will be deducted. I have no idea what happened though. oh wells.

class politics.

not even one semester, and it is starting already.

well, as a matter of fact, it started to me at like week 2.

and it got worse today.

finally seen the true colours of classmates, not friends.

I repeat that, NOT friends, just classmates.

I have to constantly remind myself that my classmates are 16-17 years old, and that is why they would act this way and that way.

the way they interact with some of the classmates.

they way they discuss projects and assignments.

the way they behave and carry themselves.

just to put it short.

childish.

simple as that.

dropped by Mount Zion after I reach Tampines interchange.

wanted to get the new Hillsongs album, but it won't be out in Singapore till mid-august. according to the staff.

I had no idea why, but I just had to buy something before leaving.

spent a good whole 45 mins looking through all the CDs.

was contemplating between Planetshakers and Parachute Band.

got Planetshakers, as I realised that I can borrow the Parachute Band album from Tricia. =)

gosh! I seriously need to get started on my work.

the podcast for intro to film is really worrying me, and the conversion of story to script also.

got to find the movie for intro to film, and the script is due on wednesday.

got to start shooting for the portfolio - there goes my weekend. two weekends.

it just got worse.

Kids now adays - beyond comprehension. sigh!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, July 17, 2008
Time : 11:11 am

Interview show recording with Kumar is tomorrow.

can't wait for it to be over, cause that will mean, one more project cancelled off the list, one more module that I can push aside and can start to concentrate on other assignments.

projects and assignments coming to me, all at the same time again.

Portfolio for Photography

Podcast for both Art&Design and Intro to Film

Conversion of draft to script for Storytelling

a couple of more quizes in the next few weeks, with unnecessary stress from IS modules. total waste of time.

shoot on Monday back at secondary school was good, managed to take almost all the photos. just that Mr Ho took a long time to get me a class room, and had trouble finding enough people for the shoot. other then that it was okay.

stares and shocks from teachers and juniors alike, directed at me.

just imagine me in lower sec uniform. you want to laugh, go ahead.

sleeping past 2am and waking up at 7 for the past two days, and maybe for the next few weeks.

just can't wait for this semester to finish.

I can hear the 7 week long break calling me. Challengers Camp - yes.

plenty of catching up to do with friends and family.

A&D consultation yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Podcast - 90% completed. just got to make some minor adjustments for the colour of some frames and the the sounds. with those completed, it should be done.

Headed home straight after A&D consultation, cause there was no CF. planned to catch some much needed sleep, to regulate back my sleeping cycle, but that wasn't the case. ended up doing my work. from the moment I reached home, at about 6 till 2am. only stopping at around 10pm to bathe, a little while of msn, and resorting to having maggie mee for dinner.

started having dreams again last night.

dreamt that my whole sec school under went major renovation, and I was just looking down from my room's window, reflecting about the times I've spent in school.

and

something else. just something else.

it was some how a little similar to the dream that I had a couple of weeks back(a series of weird and sweet dreams)

oh wells. praying. that is what I'm doing.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, July 14, 2008
Time : 10:28 am

so many things have happened the last few days.

Thursday, back to secondary school after school to get permission to go back and take photos. I guess Mr Ho was in a good mood, so thank goodness.

it all started with me deciding not to go for dinner, choosing to miss the 154, telling my parents that they need not fetch me. pure coincidence, at the bus stop. a 7 long message, while my stomach was calling out for a toilet desperately, when I was half way through. Thank goodness for one of the factories near the bus stop. two hour long conversation, ending with a prayer. it made sense all of a sudden, almost everything or perhaps its really everything. it could be the first and last conversation, something which I hope won't be. yes, earning it back, but not forgetting that everything is in His hands, His very own plans, in His very own time. after all, He made our paths cross each others, one reason for sure, and that's to be friends. other then that, only time will tell.

one thing for sure. friends, we will still be.

I thought long and hard before sending you the message last night or rather at midnight. how long has it been that we last saw each other? how long has it been that we had a decent conversation on the phone, updating each other with our daily lives. other then the once in a while morning calls over the past 4 months. it has just been too long, way too long. so many things have happened over 4 months. I mean, I'm in a totally new studying environment, meeting new people, making new friends. like what I stated in the message, we do need to talk things out, otherwise leaving it just like that would do both of us no good. I do not know how you would react if you see me in school later on. or would you react like the other time when I called you.

omg, he called me.

would that be it? I wouldn't know for sure.

Reached home after 12 for two days consecutively. Friday and Saturday.

House warming wasn’t that bad except the fact that I was the only person to have graduated from shss, other then Sherwin, or is it Ashley? Hmmm. Haha. Did a little bit of catching up with ex-school mates, advice were given, nearly gave Humanities tuition also. Lol! New card game learnt. It was hilarious, seriously.

Sunday’s P&W was kinda screwed up, such a pity, because the practice on Saturday was good, and when I say its good, I mean it.

Has been a long long time, where I could just sit down and watch tv, and I mean proper tv and that was what exactly happened last night.

Time to catch up with assignments and projects already. Be ready to see me online till late tonight and Tuesday night. Got to rush the podcast for Art & Design, cause only manage to take the photos later on. Hopefully, the settings will allow the photos to turn out the same as what my group drew in the storyboards.

Guess I’ll try to update as much as possible, that is if time permits me to. So to whoever who asked me to update, here’s the update be contented that I found the time to do it.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Time : 3:18 pm

quietly confident when the photos were shown

a couple of shocks, other then that nothing much.

did the correct things at the correct time, didn't say anything much, kept my comments to myself.

were they just shocked or surprised? when they asked who took that photo and I answered that it was I, who took the photo, or rather photos.

when one photo of mine was shown in the 'Grade A minus - B' folder, I was sure there were more to come, and I was right. 9 photos in the 'Grade A minus - B' folder(aka 2nd folder) and another 5 more photos in the 'Grade A' folder(1st folder). that makes it 14 photos out of the 30 photos submitted.

and no, I am not being boastful or anything. if I were boastful, I would have shut some of their mouths up when they were saying, 'I had 4/5/6 photos in Folder 1 /2'.

fact is I know that I am capable of taking such good photos and I just proved it to myself and to others.

a little disappointed that 1-2 photos which i thought were the nicer few didn't get selected. but I shall just push that behind me, and just be contented, at the fact that my photos got chosen and at that specific grade.

so on the overall, I am satisfied-ly happy (:

Thank you Lord.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, July 03, 2008
Time : 11:06 am

no comments for my photography presentation?

I guess I will just take it as my photos have no flaws, too good for them.

luckily I chose the right photo for the last one.

turned out good.

happy with two days of work. simple as that.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Time : 3:12 pm

I was watching this video yesterday while in the school library yesterday, and I found it just so overwhelming.

I started tearing, out of no where.

It is just simply, wow.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson