Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Saturday, August 30, 2008
Time : 9:11 pm

waiting for your text or call is like waiting for days

my ipod did not do a good job in keeping me occupied, neither did my brother's psp

sleeping was out of the question

just waiting and hoping

Date :
Time : 2:18 am

got woken up at 9 by the Teacher's Day concert that was going on in school, in the courtyard.

managed to get back to sleep, till around 12 plus.

been trying to figure out the template for my other blog till around 12 plus just now, referring to 12 midnight. so that was around 12 hours. kinda done with it, just need to do a couple of minor adjustments, before publicising it.

happy enough for those short phone calls

girl, I love you

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, August 28, 2008
Time : 7:40 pm

been doing nothing much at home these two days.

blog for my photos kinda put on hold, cause I still can't change to my desired skin.

went to bed as promised before 1 last night, but just could not get to sleep.

spent close to 2 hours thinking about everything, that has happened recently and couldn't stop thinking about that letter, even at the point when I was on the brink of falling asleep.

Rotted at home today - 00:53(Friday)

been thinking about you all these while

for the whole day

I miss you

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Time : 6:22 pm

alright, I shall try my best to update to its maximum content for the past 2-3 days.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

finally managed to wake up early enough to take bus down to church, kinda proved my brother wrong also, cause according to him, He said that I would not be able to wake up cause I have been sleeping in the wee hours of the morning. ended up catching some sleep on the bus.

Praise & Worship should be okay, I think. Got to listen to the recording of it. Overall the service was relatively okay. Cell was quite fast, short and sweet. Thought of going out after that, but the lack of sleep was catching up on me, ended up going home.

Planned to catch some sleep, but ended up talking on the phone. Made a serious statement with that chokichoki delivery. Had to get pinched so many times to believe that it was real. Finally got my hairband, and yes, Love does make someone act in strange and bizarre ways.

Crazy ah? Ya, I am crazy.

Back home, had my dinner and fell asleep at 12 while watching tv, which was surprising, considering the fact that I have been sleeping wayway early for the past few days.

Monday, 25 August, 2008

Slept till usual time, which was around close to 2. A number of missed calls while bathing.

sorry!

Had to bathe the dog as I've promised my mum, before I could go out and that was what I did. Old Chang Kee was meant for my lunch, but I didn't eat it till late at night. Apple juice does not go with Hershey's Cookies and Cream, Guava juice is still the best. Wasn't exactly used to the change of side, but still it was better then nothing. Finally got my letter reply after 2 long years. Well, it isn't exactly a reply though. Got me thinking while on my way home.

Tuesday, 26 August, 2008

Got a phone call which only gave me a maximum of 10 mins to prepare to go out, which included packing my stuff for soccer. Running around the house like some mad ass. Walking in the rain, felt so hot later on. No straining of eyes when you can wear your specs. Hmmm, what bus number is that? Old habits never do change, do they? Pulling of leg hair, not wanting to take the buses that arrive at the bus stop etc.

Travelled down to East Coast for soccer. Wasn't exactly in the mood to play soccer though. No injuries. No more ball to face incidents.

I just want things to go back to how they were

I let you go the other tine

this time I really don't want to let you go

It struck me hard, real hard

the content on the piece of paper woke me up completely

Baby girl, I love you

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Time : 3:45 am

it's just so hard to describe what has happened over the past two days.

if only three words can summarize it all up, that would be;

I am happy (:

Date : Saturday, August 23, 2008
Time : 6:28 pm

alright, I shall reply the tags before history repeats itself again.

Anonymous: seems like you've read the post. good for you -.-

Sharlene: yeah. time really flies. haha. Thank You. this year got no birthday card ah? hahaha

Rachael: hah. Thanks, even though the 'later part' didn't come at all.

Joanne: Hey! Thanks!

Dawn: Thank You. Go get spelling lessons! hahah

Zane: Hey. Thanks! See you when school reopen.

Tricia: eeh, like I want it to be like that. Can't help the fact that guys don't want to wish me. haiyer! and I have always been more matured then you, please! haha

SELENE: Thank you! (: YA! My big fat day has been over for so many days already. Now I am oldd. ):

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 5:55 pm

coming across your archive when I was bored

and I just googled baby V

reading, scanning through it all,

as recent as just two months back

starting tearing as I thought how stupid I was

to leave things just like that

not knowing how much we meant to each other

at that point of time

only for me to realise it now

Baby girl, I really need you in my life

Date :
Time : 4:47 pm

alright. decided to post the pics that I took a couple of weeks back and also recently.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 2:18 pm

Sometimes I keep on telling myself not to be paranoid

over the things that I see

It works once in a while, but most of the time it doesn't

I can't help stop thinking about them

neither can I stop thinking about you

did you really mean everything in the 'interview' yesterday?

I so really do not know

But one thing I know for sure

Baby girl, you're are the only one that I love

Loves

Date :
Time : 12:58 am

tempted to create a new blog for all the photos that I took, after viewing one such blog earlier on.

maybe I will, but the thought of uploading it one by one kills me.

damn. guess I'll think about it.

Date : Thursday, August 21, 2008
Time : 11:44 pm

all my timing is really upside down already.

I've really got to start tuning it back.

woke up in the afternoon again, just slightly after 1 plus.

had my lunch and all, slacked till around 5 before preparing head out to meet my brother before going down for music practice.

before leaving, I could not find my house keys. thought that maybe my mum took them, called her and she say she didn't take.

it was like: No house keys = Can't go for music practice = won't be playing on Sunday

eventually found it in the drawer of the shoe rack, and the only conclusion that I could come up with was, the cleaning maid placed it in there. oh wells.

trained down to City Hall. was practically stoning half the journey there,

until my missed call was returned (:

and one more thing green line sucks ):

gave up my seat once again to an old man. I was just thinking to myself, why can't everyone be more considerate? does it mean that because I was sitting in the 'Priority Seat' then I have to give up my seat? or maybe next time I should just not seat at the corners, sit somewhere else and then give up my seat if needed and make the person sitting in the 'Priority Seat' feel guilty. heh heh. oh wells, see how it goes.

finally got my long wanted bag. another Crumpler - the fux deluxe.

thanks to all those who contributed to getting me the present. personal thanks will be sent out soon, via sms (:

had Pastamania for dinner before heading down to church. ended up cabbing down, cause I had no idea why my brother was just thinking about taking the train, cause if we took the train it will mean taking all the way to payer laber before taking a bus down. but he didn't realise that there were so many buses that we could take from City Hall to Katong.

Flagged for a cab > Cab stopped in front of us > my brother says: 'Shit! FORGOT ABOUT CITY SURCHARGE!'

it was seriously shit, cause with the surcharge, the starting amount was close to $6 already. killer!

Music practice was quite okay. wasn't too bad, just that I had to keep on running to the sound system at the back to adjust the volume for everything for my own amplifier to ensure that I can hear everything.

No phone call on my way back ):

Ended up hitching a ride from Tan family back home.

I would have sure wanted to ask iris for you

I wouldn't want to hang up

but I still had to

so many things to share with you and tell you

will I be able to do it?

once again, its all in your hands

I Love You

FLIGHTEr 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 11:33 pm

slept at slightly after 6:35 this morning. why so? cause I caught the England match at 3, which means it finishes at 5, and then I was afraid that I would be able to wake up again later in the morning, cause had some stuff to settle. So only went to sleep after settling it.

Didn't even know that it rained in the morning, and my windows were not closed. luckily nothing much got wet. slept till close to 4, before waking up. damn, my timing's upside down already. just because of two days of sleeping at dawn. oh wells. ended up talking on the phone, had my first meal of the day. heard the television calling me, and then ended up doing some writing later on. It has been a long time since I did USSW, but one interesting is that Contemporary Issues actually did helped. Damn the IS Module! Hah

You made me happy for that one moment

during that incident online

& I mean it when I say I want to see you

and you've finally noticed it

Baby girl, its you that I love.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 1:25 am

Wow! It has been a long long time since I've got a spammer at my blog.

Its just laughable that there are still people out there being childish and stuff, doing these kind of things. I mean if you have the guts to come and spam my blog, and you don't have the guts to put your own real name down. It makes no sense at all.

To me, its like you are not even proud of your own name? That itself is sure laughable, or perhaps it could be the joke of the year. Damn, I would sure like to know how you will react to this post, or will you even be reading it? Oh wells.

Hmmm. Want to know my msn's personal message? Nvm, either way, I will still let you know.

Someone has something against me, and I have no idea who and why.

Alright, since you don't have a name, I shall just call you spammer. Will that do? Oh! I am sorry, I forgot that you are not even here. Alright, so Spammer it shall be.

Hey my Beloved Spammer,

You know something? The more I read your tags, the more I am starting to laugh. Damn, did you fail your english or something? I mean, you can't even spell properly for goodness sake. You want to use vulgarities? At least spell it properly, please. Such a disgrace to yourself. Oh, and didn't your English teacher teach you to use only one full-stop after you complete a sentence? Wow! I see 4 full-stops there! Perhaps you were not paying attention in school? And did you like press 'Enter' four times? Afraid that I don't get your message. Haha, please try harder. Well, just a piece of advice. Maybe you would stop spamming my blog, and instead go brush up on your basics of English; especially your punctuation and spelling. Oh, and reading helps to. Read Readers' Digest and newspaper. It really helps.

I really hope you heed my advice, cause you really need it. Well, hopefully it would be the first and last time I see you at my blog. Take care yeah?

Yours faithfully,

Huang Yixi Vicson - Owner of this blog

I just wasted 30 minutes of my life, getting this all typed out and its all dedicated to you my dear spammer, whoever you are. So be appreciative about it, won't you? (:

Date : Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Time : 11:48 pm

kinda rotted at home today.

thought of heading out, but it wasn't meant to be. ):

was on my mac the whole afternoon, thought of heading down to payer laber macs to meet my brother before heading down to east coast for weekly dosage of soccer. in the end, my brother did not go down, cause he was down with flu and fever.

cooked dinner for him before rushing off.

ended up cabbing down after reaching payer laber.

played for around 1.5 solid hours, but got struck in the face by the ball twice.

once on the right side of my face. vision for my right eye at the right corner was blurred for a little while.

and then right smack straight in the face later in the night. if I am not wrong, my front tooth got chipped off, a little. mouth got most of the impact though.

slight cut on the right thumb also. oh wells.

had to make my way home myself, cause my uncle's car didn't have enough space. reached back at around 11:20, like what I have predicted while I was on the phone.

great. my house have got no water from 9am - 5pm tomorrow. and my mum is wanting me to go and fill up the icebox and whatever that can be filled with water.. blah

guess the ): worked?

thank you

girl, I love you

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, August 18, 2008
Time : 10:18 pm

I woke up early, but late.

early in the sense that it was at like 7, but late cause was suppose to leave home at 7, and something else.

sorrys

cause my long-lost god-mother was back in Singapore, cause she lives in Shanghai now. the last time I saw her was two years ago? and before that, was ages ago, cause I can't even remember, then she called up last night, wanted to meet up for breakfast with parents, so yeahhh.

eventually left home at around 730, together with parents.

was kinda pissed off on my way there, cause its like my mum was helping my dad locate Ritz-Carlton on his GPS, and she was having a little trouble with it. So I asked my dad to pass me the street directory. and you know what he told me?

I don't need your help.

ouch. that hurts ; was my reply

yes. that was what he said. I was so damn freaking pissed and can't be bothered with him, that I just plugged in my ipod and just went to sleep. I have no idea what's with him, like can't he just tell me nicely?

breakfast was good. after that went to the airport to send my god-mother and family off. did a little of catching up, not exactly a lot. photos are with dad. lazy to ask him. reached home at around 12 and slept till around 6 plus?

you all I ever wanted

and I mean it

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, August 17, 2008
Time : 10:52 pm

17 August

my birthday, the day when I turn 19.

but somehow it just doesn't feel like its my birthday.

maybe its due to the lack of celebration? its like don't have the birthday mood, if you get what I mean.

well, thanks to those who bothered to remember, even though a majority of them wished me in the morning while I was still sleeping. 7 messages within two hours, disrupted my sleep at least 5 time. I guess I'll just name a couple of names who remembered, or will it be just all who wished me? haha. in no particular order.

Selene, Yanxiu, Rachael, Alyssa, Dawn, Janice, Johanna Tricia, Abigial, Chingying, Sharlene, Charis, Melissa, Hwee Koon, Joanne, Joanna Chua, Yi Lin, Esther, Nelson, Ali, Zane, Helen, Jing Wen, Joel Chew, Gracia Chua.

sorry if I miss out your name. just let me know.

guess that's about it.

baby girl, its you that I love

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Saturday, August 16, 2008
Time : 10:48 pm

only managed to sleep at 4 . no idea why I could not get to sleep. only to get up at slightly after noon. went online for awhile before heading off to church for music practice. quick music practice before heading down to Downtown for family gathering + my birthday celebration.

it wasn't exactly a big scale celebration though, but just plain happy cause the last family gathering was quite awhile already. mini celebration, with a small cake, but the damage was still done to my face. pure chocolate cream and marshmallow.

back home quite late. ended up talking on the phone while watching soccer. I was concentrating more on the phone call though. (:

guess that's about all.

talking nonsense eh?

heh

I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, August 15, 2008
Time : 10:59 pm

initial plan was to wake up in the morning to finish up my research paper for photography, caused I missed the skills test the last time round. ended up sleeping till noon before finishing it up. couldn't attach it to the school mail, not the first time already. damn, its just so irritating. ended up sending using my personal email, and to avoid any complications, had to like send my lecturer an email letting him know, and still msged him to let him know. oh wells.

rushed down to the airport to send my child-hood friend off. Jacqueline or is it Jaqueline? cause all these while, I have been spelling it as JaCqueline, but my bro and I saw on her bag as Jaqueline. oh wells. guess it will be another 4 years before I see her again, not to mention that she will miss the next youth camp and the photos that I took with her. I haven got any of them yet!! I am so going to bug her online till I get it.

back home, and then went out again with family and dog to East Coast. Subway for dinner.

has it all gone back to how it was?

i am certainly hoping so

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, August 14, 2008
Time : 10:31 pm

yes.

I can clearly remember what happened last year's today.

can you?

it has been a year since my maternal grandma passed away.

now does that ring a bell?

it has just been too fast for my liking.

haven't been feeling exactly myself these few days.

birthday's round the corer, but no, i don't feel the excitement.

its not that I am not looking forward to it, it just doesn't feel like its my birthday.

it just seems like something's missing.

missing from my life.

or is it that it's someone missing from my life.

I'm pretty much sure its you.

Baby girl

Every letter, word, sentence in that message

I mean it

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Time : 2:11 pm

okay, sorry about me not replying the tags.

close to 3 month already. heh.

maybe I'll just prolly reply those recent tags.

SELENE : relinked already, and I've updated already. trying to get to sleep at night, still, not like I want to be a walking panda right?? ): call me maria boyboy and double maria. you're also maria okayy =X . okay clapping my hands now, can hear? haha

Chingying : hahaha. alrights. note the word usually, well got to wait for me next sem before I will pass by your school's bus stop again. haha

RACHAEL, 'jC : hey. taking care and cheering up already. or rather still trying to.

andrea : yeah. glad that you know. haha. alright. after your Os then. (:

Jer : hey. thanks. every thing's settled already. so yeahh.

Dawn: you know long time no tag, then tag more often! haha

Janice : updated already..

Cara: Hello hello..

ley: hah. didn't expect to see you on 154. (:

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Time : 11:22 pm

headed back to school for Photography, just because we managed to convince the lecturer to extend the deadline, so we had to go back even school has ended already. to show case the Grade A photos for the final assignment. I was a little disappointed though. only 1 photo made it, and I'm not even sure if he included it accidentally, cause I had quite a few similar shots. oh wells, on the brighter note, I am happy about the grade that I got for my second assignment, on People Photography. It was higher then my first assignment, Man-made & Nature. convert it to upon 100, and its 78, so naturally, I'm happy about it.

Got my second birthday present, after my dad gave me my new phone, from Alyssa. another cap to add to my collection already. First two birthday wishes.

another 5 more days. school reopens and I will be 19. how great is that.

soccer at night as usual after missing two weeks, as I had to rush my assignments. played for two solid hours, was quite okay.

guess that's about it.

another two more days

how I wish it could all go back to how it was

I love you

FLIGHTer^17 Vicson

Date : Monday, August 11, 2008
Time : 8:44 pm

I've just read through my recent archives, recent referring to the past four-five months

and

I just realised that so many things have happened and I did not blog about it.

so many statements that I've made on my blog that I am starting to regret now.

the many statements that I did not really mean.

the many statements that have been mistaken by some people

the many statements that caused things to happen as they are happening right now.

but I know there's no point regretting it now.

what's done cant be undone.

but now, I've come to realise the things that I can do now, the things I can say, and in the future, look back and not regret what I've done or said.

Because I mean everything that I say, also in everything that I do.

That is why I'm asking for another chance

will you just give it to me?

Date :
Time : 3:19 pm

No, I didn't have a good sleep last night.

as a matter of fact, I could not get to sleep.

It just seems like every thing's falling apart.

EVERY word that I told Froggie the other night, I meant it all.

EVERY word that I said to you the other night, I meant it all.

All I want is another chance, just another chance.

cause I Love You and I mean it.

Never once have I said I Love You and I do not mean it

because its true and I mean it all the time.

Each and every time I say it.

You know it. I am almost certain.

Date :
Time : 1:17 am

and no, I won't be posting the photos already.

not in the mood to do so.

nothing special also.

just a couple of photos of the rainbow I saw after the heavy rain on Saturday while BBQ-ing, nice clouds formation and sunlight I saw while on my way home from church earlier on.

thats it.

Date :
Time : 1:08 am

I do not know how I should be feeling now.

one thing for sure is that I will not be able to get to sleep again.

such a burden of knowing the truth and everything in my heart.

prove me wrong, will you.

please just do that.

that you are just not making use of me; time and time again.

I do not want to lose you again. two times, and I can hardly take it anymore.

another time and God knows what would happen to me.

I Love You.

Yes, I do love you.

Date : Sunday, August 10, 2008
Time : 10:04 pm

alrights. gonna update for the past few days.

Music practice on thursday night was relatively good. some miscommunications with the booking of the sanctuary and all, so ended up practicing in Joshua Hall, the place where the english youth have their services. the drum set's good, sounded great despite the size of it. able to do a full roll cause it was small in size, some thing that i have been trying to do with the drum set that I have been playing for the past few months. well, quite a number of months already. cause it came in last year.

Actually had a final presentation for Photography, for my final assignment but I woke up at 930 when my class was at 9. made a quick call, realised that it wouldn't be graded. so decided not to go down as I am considered absent already and by the time I prepare, head down to school all, class would be almost over, so yeahh.

met Yanxiu, headed back to school to meet Miss Yew. time set was 11. but had to wait till around 12 plus before going out for lunch. about to start lunching when I got a msg asking me about what time does Studio Production ends. made a couple of urgent calls, realised that I had class. totally had no idea, cause before I rushed off for FOP last friday, I asked Ms Hong if there was class, she said No, and that was as far as I could remember, and because of that, decided to make it on Friday. So ended up not going for class, cause by the I figured out there was class, it was close to 1, I was still in Tampines, and by the time I reached school, it would have been past 2 and class would have been over. yup. missed school for two straight days.

National Day. No, I didn't go out to take fireworks. surprising eh? my camera ended up with my brother, and no I haven't seen the photos that he took. yet. and the reason on why I wasn't out taking photos? I was working. had a job. 5 hours. 5 hours of BBQ-ing. yes, you did not read wrongly. I was paid just to help people BBQ food. but its really three solid hours of standing there, BBQ-ing the food with all the smoke being blown into my eyes due to the wind and it was like raining heavily. thank goodness for the shelter.

Stinging to the eye, lost some hair on my right hand, right hand was sore; totally sore after the whole thing.

but come to think of it. $10 per hour. it isn't that bad. besides, its not something that I don't enjoy doing.

P&W for today's service was good. can't wait to get hold of the recording next week. youth cell after service. contemplated to either catch a movie after that or just slack around. ended up heading to Parkway - Coffee Bean and just totally slacked there. headed home after that. oh, and I finally managed to solve the Rubik's Cube, for 3 by 3.

guess thats about it. shall post some pics that I took recently, or is it earlier on and yesterday.

are thing going back the way they were

I sure hope it is cause I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Time : 11:14 pm

been quite awhile since i last updated.

finally no more projects. didn't get a wink of sleep due to the podcast and portfolio photos. and my macbook wasn't co-operating much, hanging at least 5 times last night when i was desperately trying to finish up my podcast. only managed to finish up my work slightly after 6am. couldn't risk sleeping, cause I know I wouldn't be able to wake up. totally stoned in school today, slept for more then half the lecture. at least now every thing is done. hopefully my podcast would be able to pull my grades up. I so do not want to retake the module.

photography assignment: finished with 3 days of shooting again, despite the fact that I had close to one month to take the photos. its not especially helpful when people do not allow me to use their photos and when I could not get them to sign the Talent Release Form, because before I could approach them, they have boarded the bus. there goes some of the bonus mark. oh wells. at least I managed to get some of them to sign it. and no. I am not exactly satisfied with my work.

plenty of dents on my macbook already. especially the four corners. dropped it from at least a meter high. not like i dropped it on purpose. resulted in a cracked LCD. just the top corner, thought its okay, can just leave it. but it wasn't the case the following cause it got worse. half the screen, I could see nothing. had to get it repaired no matter what, cause deadlines were approaching. headed down to Sapura to get the quotation to repair it and the figures they gave me. $1.2K just to replace the LCD, and at least 5 working days. its like even if I have the money, I don't have the time to wait. Headed down to Sim Lim. the quotation. $390, 2 hours and it's settled. the LCD is more reflective and glossy though, but who cares. seriously.

another presentation tomorrow, another lecture next tuesday and I can officially say hello to my 7 week semester break. but what a way to end my sem. the first and last sleepless night I had for this whole semester. oh wells~

been on the phone these few days.

I just want things to go back the way they were.

i really do.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson