Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Thursday, January 31, 2008
Time : 6:47 pm

woke up as usual and went back to sleep and i woke up eventually.
parents wanted to go eat Delifrance, so headed down to tm, but couldnt make up our mind on what to eat.so in the end went to the foodcourt at CS and had our usual beef noodle.
went down to macs, had a drink. green tea as usual.
then all of a sudden my mum asked me, if i needed to get new jeans.
told her, i dun need, but i want.
and surprisingly, she said go buy. i was like okayyyy..
so went all over cs and tm. look for jeans and in the end, settled at levis, tm.
bought two pairs. then came back.
went online and was on the phone.
guess thats about it.
yup

its a milestone today!!

skinnies. blah!!

I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Time : 11:27 pm

woke up and thought abt going down, decided not to.
went back to sleep, woke up later
went down for brunch with mum and dk.
came back and was on the com and phone.
like for the whole day.
talked on the phone later again at night.
lalala~ hahah
yup..

I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 6:05 pm

DAWN : haha. yeah. i had totally nothing to do, and kind you kindly ps-ed me. so i had to find something to do lor. heh. T-A-G-G-E-D replied!! haha

MEL : hey!! thanks!! congrats to you also!! relinked already.

CHINGYING : i knowwww!! somehow my com just doenst like me. i will pass them to you asap, alright? i am feeling bad enough already.

CARA : okay. i had a hard time figuring out what was that. heh

SELENE : lalalalalalalala~ nugget you!!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Time : 11:59 pm

woke up at usual time, went back to sleep.
woke up agian at about 12+. asked mum what she wanted me to do, as i was going out for lunch.
so in the end, had to fix the box that she bought from ikea and vacuum the whole house.
blah.
went out for lunch at ikea, at about 2:30.
after that met bro at payer lebar at about 7+.
damn bus driver didnt want to stop for us, so in the end cabbed down to east coast for soccer at 8.
played relatively well, and my team hit the woodwork like 8 times for the whole night.
goal-less. but we improved a whole lot.
and my ankle is like not in good shape. got injured, three times at the same spot.
a little trouble walking now though.
guess i got to pay a visit to the sinseh for treatment. and also for my right thumb. =(
burger king-ed then went home. ride half way from joel and cabbed back.
bathed the first thing i reached home. talked on the phone for awhile.
played my bro's psp and then went to sleep. yup.

its safely kept in the album

it will be with me for life

I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, January 28, 2008
Time : 11:52 pm

woke up at usual time then went back to sleep again.

woke up at around 11 plus, only for my parents to stress me for the JAE application.

thank goodness they left home a short while after i woke up.

ate and then went through the choices again. cause had another few options.

made up my mind, then went down to tp for the application, cause got no printer at home.

got the queue number and before it was my turn, said a small prayer.

calmed myself, not wanting to rush through and have last minute changes.

my queue number appeared, walked towards the stage whil listening to my ipod, then all of a suddden i heard 'VICSON!!' i was like huh?

turned, looked up and saw Dawn and Zermaine. hah.

and according to Dawn, i looked damn blur. okay, i was a little blur =/

applied for jae then jpsae, and i wasnt prepared at all for the application for jpsae. i was just lost when i had to feel up some of the sections, like talent description and what nots.

once again, i prayed and i just typed down whatever that came into my mind. cause at that point of time, my mind was a total blank, had totally no content in it. managed to get it done, with God's help.

headed home and saw Lionel on the way out. haha.

talked on the phone and went online whe i reached home. yup.

then spent the whole night on the com and phone.

and here's my 12 choices, so please stop asking me what's my choices. and if you have any personal comments about my choice of courses, please keep them to yourself, cause i am damn pissed with one person already. having nothing but negative comments about the school and the course that i have applied for, yup

Film, Sound and Video - NP

Audio -Visual Technology - NP

Digital Visual Effects - NP

Visual Communication - TP

Media and Communication - SP

Psychology Studies - TP

Motion Graphics and Broadcast Design - NYP

Media Studies and Management - NYP

Media and Communication Technology - TP

Moving Images - TP

Resort Facilities Services and Management - SP

Electrical Management - NP

i chose the courses in such a way that, the first four is my interest, middle four some sort like 'i want to get in, but probability is low' and the last four, i can get in with the points that i got. the last choice is a safety net, if you want to put it that way, cause the COP is 24 points. yup.

Happy Birthday to you!!
May the Lord's Blessings and Love be showered onto you,
and keep you safe in all that you do
as you enter a new segment of your life.

I Love You
i still do and you know that.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, January 27, 2008
Time : 9:56 pm

went down to church alone as usual. its like the moment i opened my brother's room door
he waved his hand at me, meaning a
No, you go down first
i didnt even have to wake him up!! heh
caught the bus, and it was like damn crowded. the first time in recent weeks. no idea.
hopefully next week wont be the same.

played drums for Hokkien service, then went out for breakfast.
yeah. i know. i wasnt feeling lazy. =)
came back, waited for Mandarin Service to start.
played drums again. well, it seems like there's a fixed instruments for all already. =/
major screw up for the last song. oh wells. heh
rushed through lunch, then headed down to town area to meet friends.
ya, friends. hah
and its like the moment i reached, i became broke. like literally.
oh wells.
walked and crapped around. oh and is that such music called 'christian heavy metal' ??
if there is, please let me know. hahahaha
left at around 5+ then headed home. yup

dinnered, talked on the phone then kinda settled on the final 12 choices for the JAE application.
talked on the phone for a little while more, on the com a little while more.
went to sleep after that.

slept at 2:30am.
sorrys. i know i had to sleep by 2am. =/

i really hope you understand on what i said

three would not be possible

but two would be possible

i am really hoping that it would be us two

I Love You, and you know its true

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Saturday, January 26, 2008
Time : 11:59 pm

Still - Hillsongs

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 11:06 pm

woke up early today, round 8:30am, and headed down to Ngee Ann poly alone. asked more about some of the courses, mainly Film, Sound and Video and Digital Visual Effects. then was talking to one of the lecturers and he was telling me about planning for long-term and not short -term for just the next three years, then he talked about Audio-Visual Techology and Electrical Engineering. found out more about those few courses. yup.

left at about 12+ and i had no where to go cause music practice would be at 5:30pm. my bro was still working and i just didnt want to go home. ended up talking on the phone at the MRT station. well, eventually met my brother at about 4+, had my lunch first though then headed down for music practice.

slacked while then 10-ed home. talked on the phone and drafted out some names for some stuff. dinnered then did some checking of the courses for my JAE application. caught the Liverpool match, talked on the phone and headed to bed. yup.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, January 25, 2008
Time : 8:38 pm

so many things happened today
but very little things to blog about
or rather very hard to blog
even on the little things that i can blog about
thats all

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 2:12 am

TRICIA : now what did i do to make you call me mean?? haii!! haha

SELENE : lalalala~ bored. i am also bored now. bored then how leh?? (: alrights, dun ): later not sexy already. hah =X

♥ MICH : hello. yeah, you were here. haha. yeah, results out already!!

CHINGYING : hahaha. yeah.okay. so you should be tagging more often!! haha. nah, not exactly random. haha

JANICE : thank you!!! hahah

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, January 24, 2008
Time : 11:54 pm

God is so good to me & and i can testify that when

You honour God, God will honour You!!

i can truly testify that.

nope, i wasnt feeling nervous or afraid this morning or afternoon. i was just looking forward to it, couldn't wait for results to be out.

even as Mr Ong was going through the stats and the top performers, i was calm and very collected. but once he was done going through those people, i was thinking to myself,

Well Vicson, there goes your 15-18 points target.

then results started to release. all i could do was just sit there and wait and look around. see the different reactions of different people. somehow, i just started to feel nervous and its so not helping when people keep on asking me if i have got my results. and i like repeated myself like dunno how many times. i will be the last person to receive in my class.

last person to collect results from my class. my turn. like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y !!!!
i just sat in front of Mr. Sham. then when he was about to pass me my result slip, i went

wait wait, mr sham, just tell me how much i got for my science.

then he asked me how much i got last year. i took out my result slip from last year and showed him.
and he said,

Four.

the moment i heard it, i went

YES YES YES!! I PASSED MY SCIENCE!!

and i practically jumped la, i did jump in tiny circles though. =/
yes. i was that happy, cause all i needed was for my science to pass and it happen,
and truth was i didn't even expect to get a B4.

i was just so happy with my results. all my subjects improved other then my MT and English.
its like my Combined Humanities went from a C6 to a B3,
C5 to a B3 and my Combined Science D7 to a B4.
my MT was still the same C5 but my English this time round was a C5.
luckily i could use lasts years's grade and it was a B3.
so its like from last year's L1R4 of 26 points, i jumped to this year's L1R4 of 18 points. a difference of 8 points. and 18 points was just exactly what i was aiming for. like seriously. my whole family was happy for me. i so thanked my tutors, especially Glenn, who had only around 4 months and he retaught me everything about Chemistry. the foundation and all, even managed to finish up the 10 year series in 4 months. i have no idea how did it happen, but it just happened. thank my maths tutor. and most importantly, i really thank God for giving me this result. and not to forget Mr Ong. i so went down to his office to thank him personally, for giving me the second chance to retake my Os in school.

went out after that, to kinda celebrate my results and headed home at about 530+
then started to short list out the courses that i will apply for. look at the course codes until i was like damn blur and all. stopped a little while after that. dinnered and here i am online, blogging. yup.

oh and
i am a veryveryvery happy person, today. =D

i meant every word that i said

and i hope that you know it

Thank You

I Love You, i do

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 12:43 am

in another 15 hours or so, my results will be in my hands.
that is if they give out according to class index number like what they did the other time.
whatever results i get, i will Give Thanks and praise the Lord,
for it is Him who gives me what i have and what i achieve.

as i glance through some blogs and my msn contacts
i can tell that many are nervous, afraid
a very small percentage, instead might be looking forward to collecting them
just like me
somehow, i am looking forward to collect my results. i just cant wait.
despite that, there's a little little bit of fear in me
way back, all the way at the back of my heart
the fear that i would not achieve what i have been working and studying so hard for
but yet at the same time, there's this bit of thrill in me
hoping that i get better then what i have been aiming.
of course if that happens, its GOD's Grace and Blessing.

i am wishing to get the grades that i want
so that i can prove some people wrong
prove to them that my grades for the last time round wasnt any fluke
if i could get better grades, it would probably shut them up.
for good!

i am hoping for tears of joy later on.
just like last year. when i thought i wouldnt do too good.
but good enough for me to apply into poly.
it was the results of the application that 'killed' me.
this time round, i am hoping for even better results.
way better then last year.
this time round, i am hoping for a more positive outcome in the application.
not one that says

-

NRIC : S89*****A
Name : HUANG YIXI VICSON

We regret to inform you that you are unsuccessful in your application.
However, if you wish to apply to a particular course,
you may approach the institution concerned directly.
The institution concerned will inform you of the outcome of your application.

-

yup.

you will get some credit if i score well

afterall

it was your words of encouragement that kept me going

Thank You

I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Time : 11:47 pm

did nothing much today.
i was like practically on the phone for the whole day today.
helped my mum abit here and there.
vacuumed the floor.
sent some people the camp photos.
and i am sorry to those who cant open up the last two days of camp, the photo folder.
most prob, i will just send out the whole folder to a few people and hope they will circulate it,
or either that i will burn them into another cd, duplicate and pass to you guys.
yup. i am really sorry about it.. =/

picked up half way

could it be picked up fully?

i am hoping so

I Love You

and I know that you know it

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 4:36 pm

i am bored, bored, bored.
i am dead bored.
i have no idea why.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Time : 11:47 pm

06:20, as usual.
sorry, i forgot to change the time. =/
went back to sleep at about 06:30 till about 12 plus
and i got pissed the moment i woke up.
cause it was like i went to bathe, then after i came out, my mum told me to bathe the dog.
i was like
You could have told me to bathe the dog before i bathe what
then dunno what she say la, something like saying its her fault or what la. blahblah.
nugget her la!!
got damn irritated. cause she jolly well knew that i was going to bathe, cause i was clearly holding on to my towel. -.- and i will confirm need to bathe again once i am done bathing the dog, cause she will get me wet and all. and that was exactly what happened.

luckily she went out. could have some time alone at home.
did nothing much online, more attention was paid to my phone.
left home at about 4pm, cause had to meet my brother at Cityhall, then go cut hair.
but apparently, somehow. i 'slacked' at the bus stop and i missed 4 buses. hahaha. heh.
so by the time i got to interchange, it was about 4:35 already.
but still managed to reach on time. yup.

finally got my hair cut, after like close to 10 weeks, i think?
then cab-ed down to East Coast.
soccer from 8 - 10pm.
BK-ed after tha, then got a ride home from my uncle.
just bathed not too long ago, and here i am blogging.
yup.

sticks out tongue at someone,

after the question was asked

emmm. i really wonder

I Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, January 21, 2008
Time : 11:40 pm

woke up at 6:20 as usual then went back to sleep at around 6:30.
got woken up at 7:15 then only went back to sleep at 7:45
slept till 1. yeah i know. damn pig.
realised no one was at home, or rather i was alone at home.
lunch-ed, talked on the phone, went online, played game.
and i got so irritated by my parents.
keep on telling me that the results are coming out on thursday when i already knew it.
blahblahblah.
well, somehow, i just cant wait for the results to be out.
no offence to those who are feeling nervous or scared for their results. yup.
bro came back then help him fix the other wardrobe.
was about to start on the door then realised that the mirror cracked. cause its mirror door, so had to stop.
called up ikea and they will be delivering the replacement set on thursday.
same time again. between 10am - 2pm.
so had my dinner then talked on the phone again and here i am blogging.
guess that's it. yup.

you mean a whole lot to me

and i am sure you still know it

i am still waiting

I Love You

FLIGHTer^17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 3:59 pm

JANICE : oh okay. green and orange. i am trying to visualize it. haha. oh if she insists la. i cant be bothered about her already. really cant trust her?? haha

SELENE : yeahh.. you name is big again!! haha. ya, that's why i said i didn't regret choosing that orange what.haha. oh okay. and i do mean it, you know i do. yup.

JEDIDAH : hey. thanks.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, January 20, 2008
Time : 10:47 pm

woke up at usual time, at 0830 i mean.
couldnt decide what shoe to wear, and it resulted in me missing the feeder bus to interchange
knowing that i will be late if i catch the next bus
so decided to cab down to changi hospital there to catch the Bus 10
and that was what i did
managed to catch the bus, reached church on time.
played drums then decided not to go out for breakfast
was feeling tired, and on the other hand lazy also.
ended up msging, while trying to get some sleep. haha
after that played drums for service.
well, felt that the P&W was good.
youth session, then lunched. it was just so quiet during lunch, cause Fidelis, Nellie, Bel and my bro didn't come and Serene was sitting at another table. so yaa.

bro came down to meet me and eugene after that. played awhile of lan then headed down to Payer Lebar for Appreciation dinner. and its like we were suppose to take bus, in the end, they decided to walk. thank goodness i had the phone to accompany me. heh.
in the end caught the bus. -.- and my phone died on me just as the dinner was starting. sorry!!
then had the dinner. its like the fatest dinner ever. about 2 hours only. and at the same time had the farewell for Serene, cause she's leaving for Aust soon. yup.

got a ride home from Tan family. did the usual stuff once i reached home and charge my phone.
then talked on the phone till about 12+ then went to sleep, cause was feeling tired. yeah. i know. its like considered early for me. yup.

i love you.

yes i do.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Saturday, January 19, 2008
Time : 9:14 pm

did i mention that, from last week onwards.
i would make a point to post a song each week.
a Christian song, that i find it meaningful, well at least to myself.
there's no special meaning to each song. i just hope that the songs will just touch you, or anyone that visits my blog. yup.

so the song for the next one week.

MIGHTY TO SAVE - Hillsongs

Everyone needs compassion
Love thats never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Well everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of a savior
The Hope of the nation

Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever, author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender (and i surrender)

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen king
Jesus

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 9:10 pm

it has been a roller coaster day for me.
full of ups and downs. yup.
that's it.
IT IS that simple.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, January 18, 2008
Time : 5:23 am

i know i am suppose to be sleeping.
i am sorry, for not sleeping early.
some how i just cant get to sleep.
from 02:00, blink of an eye and its going to be 05:30 already.
i guess i will probably slap myself later on when i wake up,
from my sleep later.
or i can be n*****y-p*** , something which i dun really enjoy,
something that i am bound to lose. you know what it is. hahaha.
heh =/

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, January 17, 2008
Time : 10:23 pm

alright. woke up at the usual time.
went back to sleep after that.
woke up at 07:40 to make sure my bro was awake as he had to go work.
and then..

my mum woke me up this morning. yes again!! at 10:45.
apparently, i guess she had no idea what time i slept last night or rather this morning.
washed up, and immediately started putting in the railings and the baskets for the interior of the already done wardrobe. and it was getting real irritating, cause i had to do it all by my own. imagine holding a rail, way above your head, with your left hand when you are right handed. having to balance it, while screwing the screw to attach it to the wardrobe with your right hand.
one rail was bad enough, and i had to do three rails.
besides that, i still had to put in three baskets and two shelves right at the top of the wardrobes. i got really irritated when the term 'parallex error' came into the picture, cause that was what exactly happened. not once, not twice, not three times. in fact it happened more then three times. nuggety screw it!! heh =/

and something is damn wrong with blogger, forever losing the connection. -.-
oh wells.

sorry for the side track. and after i was done with fixing the rails, baskets and shelves in, i had to help to pack and transfer the clothes form the old wardrobe to the new wardrobe. and i was getting irritated with the sorting out of clothes, with the person i was working with(okay, i shouldn't be saying this, cause its my mum. but yaa), in fact with everything. i have no idea why. luckily, there were msges to keep me going, and do my whatever i was doing. yup. well, once done with the transferring, vacuumed and mop my floor and shifted my bed in back to my room cause i shifted out my bed yesterday and i was sleeping in the living room. -.- rearranged my room a little. cause now the full length mirror cupboard is beside my table, the the book cupboard and the japanese cupboard(that's wat my mum calls it) are back to theie original location. so much for shifting them earlier on. drum set is back up at the same place, beneath my air-con. yup. guess i will take a couple of shots and post them, probably tomorrow or saturday. yup. talked on the phone for a little while, after i was done. yup.

had my dinner, tv-ed and emo-ed a little, cause was browsing through the archieve but am okay now. =) and here i am blogging. yup.

right up till now

there's an empty spot in my heart

the size of it doesn't matter

be it big or small, the spot is there

just waiting to be filled up

by you

once again

i am missing you, badly

and you know it

I Love You, still

and you know it too

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 7:41 pm

i am feeling irritated and frustrated, for no reason.
its just all of a sudden.
just what is wrong with me?
damn it.
if only someone could tell me what's bothering me.
aarrgghhhhh!!!!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 3:04 am

alright. i have just finished settling my stuff for today or rather Wednesday.

two quarrels in one day is bad enough. hopefully this is meant for the CNY period. cause, every year without fail, during CNY period, my whole family sure end up in quarrels de. and this time was because of the new wardrobes. shan't talk much about it.

well, in the end i only slept at around 03:30. set my alarm to wake up at o4:00 to watch the match, but ended up waking up at 05:00. so watched the second half till about 06:00 then finally went to sleep. but not for long, woke up at around 07:00. i was suppose to wake up at 06:40 though. i am sorry, N-O !!! heh. ended up talking on the phone, till about 08:00 plus. stood at the window for awhile though. then after that headed back to sleep. only for my mum to wake me up at 10:45 to fix the wardrobes. -.- shortly after that had the small quarrel. stopped doing whatever i was doing, kept myself in the room and managed to get a little bit of sleep. went back to SHSS at around 13:40 to collect my testimonial. ended up talking to aunty alice, and i tell you this. she cannot be trusted, she's really two-faced. confirmed the facts with janice and whatever that she says, doesn't telly. so there. saw cheng young. caught up a little with him, and ended up discussing about doing a gathering for our Sec 2 class. he's quite supportive of it, so i will try and ask around and see how's the response like. yup.

went home after that. ended up stoning at my lappy, even though i was online. a phone call did 'wake me up' though, talked and crapped till about 20:30, i think if i never remember wrongly. then started fixing the wardrobes again, with my bro's help. half way through, the top plank dropped straight into my arms, like out of no where. whap!! went straight into my arms, thank goodness my arms didn't break, cause the impact was damn big!! then my father intervened and some stuff happened and it eventually sparked off the big quarrel of the night. everyone one in my family was involved.

i just could not take it anymore, and i just let it all out. just went to one corner and cried. yes, i cried.

it was just too..argghhh. i shan't talk about it anymore. spoils my mood. damn it!!

composed myself a little while after that and continued fixing the wardrobes. just my bro and me. all the way till about 01:00.had a couple of screw ups though, nothing can be done about then now though.yup. so now only the interior of the wardrobes and my bro's wardrobe isn't done. guess i will try to do the interior tomorrow(thursday), and my bro's wardrobe to be up by next monday, cause he will be busy for the rest of the week. so got no time.then after that can shift the clothes all over. yup. had our dinner, my second meal, my first proper meal for the day, after that. bathed and all and by the time, it was about 03:00. and here i am blogging. yup.

P.S
My ankle is feeling better now. thanks for the concern.
if it gets worse, i will stop playing soccer, alrights?? =)

i mean what i say

and i will always keep the promise

no hurting myself

and no, i haven done anything to hurt myself on purpose

i am and i still will be waiting

and i mean what i said just now

I Love You

yes, i do

i still do

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Time : 1:51 am

alright.
i fell asleep the moment i was on my bad, tat was after hugging froggie though. yup. that was about 03:15, i think.
woke up at 06:15 for some reason. didn't get back to sleep until 07:20, cause i was feeling cold and i just couldn't sleep. got woken up by a phone call made by the ikea delivery people at about 11:30, informing me that they are on their way already. so immediately got out of bed and washed up. they reached at around 12:30. and apparently after that, i couldn't stand my mum and her nagging(i know i shouldn't be doing this, but oh wells) , so asked yx if she mind meeting up earlier. she didn't mind, so met at 13:15. went back to school, went to PE room but was locked. so went up to find Gopal, crapped then went down to General Office to see if by any chance my testimonial would be there. but it turned out that it was with Sham. went back to PE room again. and he was inside, but my beloved testimonial was at his home, resting. so i got to go back to school again tomorrow, or rather later on. pop-ed by auntie alice there, did a little catching up with her, found out that quite a number of teachers have left school or rather stopped teaching , i think.

headed to macs for lunch, cause yx didn't want to have school food, and yet i wanted to have school food. oh wells. guess there's always another time. yup. headed home after that.

went and talked online. rained, rained damn heavily. still prepared to go out for soccer. headed down to interchange and the rain wasn't that heavy. mrt-ed down to payer laber to meet bro then 135-ed down to Parkway there and walked to East Coast Park. talked and crapped on the phone though. haha. it was such a long time since it last happened. talked till about 20:30, with all the
c*****n n****t, n*****y n****t, s***r-n*****y-n****t,
and all the different variations. haha.

P.S. if you know what THEY stand for. please keep it to yourself. yup. thanks!!

well, my ankle was kinda hurting, cause everytime i kicked the ball, the left side of my right ankle would have a crack sound and the feeling. so in the end, i didn't really play much. didn't want to injure my ankle. afterall, my right ankle has twisted and sprain for like more then 4 times, if i never remember wrongly, in the recent years. yup. got a ride home from uncle ray then had ultra late dinner, at like 12. watched abit of tv, slacked then went to bathe and here i am blogging. yup.

I still Love You

and I mean everyword that I have said to you

be it recently or last time

I really do Love You

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Time : 2:54 am

DAWN : hahaha..so smart eh? cause i remember i told you that a longlong time ago and you said it won't happen. but it did!! so just tell you lor..haha. heh =D and its not exactly music okay!! i think they were more like making noise, just tat it sounds nicer with you involved? LOL. okay. i am seriously just kidding and being crappy. cause i cant sleep. damn!! =/

XINGJIE : cause you happened to see them what, or rather cause i let you see. hahahah. wah. you best liao lor. give me so many nicknames when i haven even give you any. yeahhh..i can tell. i am not blind okay!! hahahaha

SELENE : yeah. i know. actually i was looking for a more striking shade of orange, but was told it would look dark at night, so chose this shade. totally no regrets!! haha. oh okay. ya, i know. afterall its your own freedom. heh. yup. alright. limited words here, i think you should know what i mean. heh. =/

JANICE : hahaha..okay. if you having a room to yourself at your new house, then paint your room with this shade of orange la. its nice!! haha.

CARA : is my room really big? or does it look big because of the angle(s) i took the photos? heh. yeah. i know. blue is my favourite colour. but i was considering the fact that if i want to repaint again, blue is a colour that would be too hard to paint over, that's why i chose something lighter?? get it?? haha. okayyy!! are you sure?? can't blame you about the polka dots. after all, we come from the polka dots family. HAHA

alrights. now i shall try and sleep. =/

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 2:41 am

time check, 02:41 and i am still kinda wide awake.

i know, i promised you that i will sleep early. but some how i just cant sleep.
maybe because i woke up late or maybe i slept too much or maybe it could be some other reason.
i have no idea.
anyhows, i still have to sleep soon cause i have to wake up way earlier.
cause the ikea delivery is coming between 1000 - 1400.

and i just thought of something random,
sometimes i do not know if i should use 24-hour notation or what la.
okay nvm. okay tune back.

and apparently, that's 4 hours.
cause they deliver by the postal code so i am hoping there isnt much delivery in pasir ris or changi area,
then they can send to my place faster. yup.
after that, should be meeting yx then head back school to collect my testi and have lunch.
i am so missing school food.haha.

alrights. guess i will try and sleep after i reply the tags. yup.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, January 14, 2008
Time : 5:17 pm

i have no idea how did i sleep till 2:45 today,
cause i slept like earlier yesterday.
at about 2 plus. but that was what happened.
have been just practically slacking after i had my supposedly breakfast or rather brunch.
did nothing much.
talked online and ended up talking on the phone for a little while though,
for abt 40 mins. yaaa..

i am just sososo hooked, addicted to THAT THING

(you know what it is)

more then i have ever been

everytime i look at my phone,

i just know what is missing from my life now.

would the voidness be able to be able to be filled up,

by you again?

its all in your hands.

14th

19:47

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 12:51 am

alrights. like what i have promised. pictures taken of my room, and me painting away. yup. =)

and a couple more photos that i couldnt resist taking while i was painting my room.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, January 13, 2008
Time : 11:41 pm

i just couldnt fall asleep last night. tried to find people to msg, but no replies. so i took it as they have slept already. usual pple i talk to were not online already. but some how i ended up talking on the phone, to Stephanie, till about 03:15. and i fell asleep straight away after hanging up.

woke up slightly late, some how i was hoping for a morning call, but it didn't come. bro was still tired so i went down alone. and i caught the same bus as i took last week. the damn freezing bus. and this time i was wearing short sleeve!! both my hands ended up numb by the time i alighted, even though the same advices were being told. =/ heh. hahaha.

and i felt that the P&W for both Hokkien and Mandarin Service were good!! or maybe i just played well? oh wells. oh and apparently, i was feeling tired and lazy so didn't go out for breakfast, the delivery person wasn't working, so i had no food. haha.i guess only you would know what i mean. then had Mandarin service then youth. and apparently, everyone was quite crappy and high during the lesson and lunch. God knows what happened!! haha.

headed home after lunch. guess that's about my day. yup.

it could have been 9, tomorrow.

how i wish all these isn't happening.

until someone came along

and it started happening.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Saturday, January 12, 2008
Time : 8:55 pm

only managed to sleep at around 3:30 yesterday, or rather this morning.
woke up at about 12:30 and no one was home. in short i was home alone.
bro went to work, dad went to work and my mum had some appointment.
bro came back shortly, then decided to set up the drums. so now the drum set is right beside my table.i guess the arrangement should be okay. new wardrobes coming in on tuesday. hopefully should up by Wednesday, cause i cant do it alone. by then everything should be back in my room, nicely arranged and stuff. yup.

so went down for music practice, was relatively okay.

my mind did drift away, once or twice.
began thinking of those time where the msges would come in
'hey, finish music practice already?'

nothing much i can do about it know, i guess.
i will be waiting, though.

headed home after music practice and here i am.
yup.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 8:44 pm

Who Am I- Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise
Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I
because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 2:53 am

somehow, i just cant get to sleep.

and my right thumb is killing me.

sprained for more then one month.

its almost as good as useless.

seriously need to get it done.

and i am missing you.

you know i do.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 1:53 am

xingjie : wah!! you actually tagged ah??haha. aiyah, your room?? nvm la. fade fade lor. haha nothing much also. heh. and MAYBE i will post that kuku photo, maybe only. haha. but not for now. you can slowly wait ah!! LOL

mel : i think you told me before, in school. haha. well, believe it!! haha

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 1:39 am

alright. i have completed painted my room. orange and purple. it may look or sound kinda weird to some of you, but to its done already. probably won't be painting my room for at least another 2 years? emmm, the purple is quite simliar to the previous shade, and the orange totally rocks. like seriously. its damn nice. no regrets choosing the orange. haha.

so while i was painting my room, i had free entertainment from school, cause they were having the cca orientation and music was just blasting right up to my house. all the way up 16 levels!! and the very first song that caught my attention??

Open Up The Gates!!

totally got my mood going. lalala
and it was damn freaking noisy, especially BAND!!
Dawn Teo, Are you reading this?!?!?!?!
SEE , I TOLD YOU!! BAND WILL IRRITATE ME FOR A LONGLONG TIME!! (emmm, this is only directed to dawn teo, band memebers, if you happen to be reading this, don't be offended. heh)
so i started at around 0130 and finished painting my room at about 1800. did a little msging and talking on the phone though. and i was back to my usual mood.

IT DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE OKAY!!!

so right now, my room is kinda empty, cause i only shifted my table, bed and my boxes in. the rest are still in the living room and my brother's room,and i am so loving it right now!! well, most prob, will be shifting the rest back in after the delivery from ikea for the new wardrobes. yup.

did managed to snap a few photos of my room while painting it, but i am feeling lazy to transfer to my lappy. so i guess i will do them tomorrow, as in saturday. yup. that's about it. =)

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, January 11, 2008
Time : 2:17 am

alright. my room is 90% re-painted. its not all purple though. went down to the paint shop and decided on light purple and orange. so its kinda striking, even though i feel that the orange can still be more orange-gy. yup.
so i like woke up earlier, at like about 1030, then had breakfast with mum then went to buy the paint and get some of the painting accessories from auntie janice's place. headed back. started at around 3.30pm after shifting EVERYTHING out of my room. so decided to give the walls a white coating before putting on the colour to make it more balanced. so that was what my mum and i were doing from 3.30 till around 8. had dinnered. then continued, with the colours. till about 1 plus. washed up and bathed and stuff and was around 1.30 already. yup.

despite being occupied for the whole day, my mind still drifted and i was just thinking about you. the colours in my room just reminded me about you. ORANGE and PURPLE. not like i chose them on purpose, cause i decided it the other time.
within the span of 9 hours, i sent you 4 msges and not even one was replied. now i know how you feel like last time, waiting for my reply that will take ages to come. and it sucks totally. the feeling of rejection is the worst feeling for one to have. well, perhaps you need sometime to yourself, perhaps it was some other reasons. i do not know. i have no idea.
everytime i look out of my window and into school, i am just hoping to see you, even just a glimpse. but it just doesnt seem to happen. you just mean so much to me, and i am realising it everyday, more and even more, increasing as each day passes by.
i am still waiting. i am still holding on. i will wait for you, just like you waited for me for 4 long months.

I still Love You.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, January 10, 2008
Time : 1:14 am

feeling much better now. just that i am still having thoughts about the whole thing.

emmm, i am sorry if i was too harsh or what.
and i didn't plan to flare up,
seriously.
but i was just too frustrated and it just happened.

I Am Sorry.

and i mean it.

alrights, was checking my email just now(and i dun do it often), and i just realised that Big Nathanial emailed me my photos like about two weeks ago and i didn't realise. so i guess i will post the pics here as some of it are too large to be up on friendster. lazy to upload into facebook also. so yup.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Time : 9:19 pm

someone tell me,
why is it always the case where i have a certain feeling and something is bound to happen shortly after that.
why why why???
i just dun get it.
i just dun get it.
i seriously just dun get it.
why do things have to end up this way??

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 9:16 pm

down
down
down
that's how i am feeling.
enough said.

Date :
Time : 8:37 pm

i am dead bored.
i am feeling paranoid again.
i am not feeling like my usual self.
perhaps in short i am just emo-ing away?
i really do not know.
somehow i am feeling insecure now.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson