Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Friday, April 27, 2007
Time : 8:40 pm

emmm..i wonder
i seem to have read the phrase before
being said at by tat phrase before
and now i am reading tat phrase again at a different angle

it is always the same? i wonder

Date : Thursday, April 26, 2007
Time : 9:02 pm

went to school
wasnt feeling well at all
slept for the first period
then decided to go home
went down general office
waited for bro to come

went back and slept all the wat till abt 7
dinnered but it was tasteless
hopefully i can get well on monday
to sit for english paper

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Time : 11:03 pm

went to school abit earlier today
for some reason
teng li totally forgot to bring my pe shirt to school
found a quick solution
THANKS yanxiu
hah
sorry if i woke you up

school was rather okay
only tat for the last two periods which was SS
i just could not focus
totally
couldnt pay attention and think properly

had lunch
then went off for english oral exam
then for some unforeseen circumstances
my original tester had too many students to take
then i was passed to another tester
and i became the first
haha
was quite good
just tat my reading was a little too fast
other then tat kinda okay =)

met her after tat
waited for her mum
then she went off
i went home
played game for awhile
then rushed down to church
saw xg and leeling on the bus
haha

met helen, bel and bro for dinner
then just abt to leave the place for church
it started raining heavily
had no choice but called dk to come fetch us
so because of tat started late which means ended late

then went home
guess tats abt it
yup

i<33you!!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Time : 7:31 pm

do not ask me abt my chinese orak exam today
cause its the worse tat i have ever done in my 11 years of education
my reading was horrible
stopping at every 4 words
conversation was even worse
i know wat to say
but i just jumbled up all my words
and i just could not phrase it out into a proper sentence
i had all the points in my brain
but i just could not get it out
i shall be rather honest with myself
it would be a miracle if i pass
serioulsy
cause i did real bad
it was horrible
so horrible tat i dun wanna talk abt it anymore

and guess wat
my english oral exam is tomorrow
screw the timetable
hopefully it wont have the same outcome as my chinese oral exam

missing you <33!!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, April 23, 2007
Time : 9:31 pm

why does it feel like a friday to me when its only monday
the first day of the week

stress is starting to pile on me already
starting back to my usual routine of sleeping when i have stress
and i have to stop tat
otherwise i will just be wasting another year

nothing much happened in school today
just another usual day
tuition after school
slowly catching up on the rest of the syllabus already
hopefully i will be ready for mid-year
now the only thing tat's bothering me
is tat i do not know wat chapters to focus on for my humanities
social studies and history
wat chapters to study??
someone;anyone..tell me!!

I am Loved !!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, April 22, 2007
Time : 10:44 pm

the weekend has just passed so fast
i shall be honest with myself and everyone else
and tats
i did not study for the whole weekend
slacked the two whole days until just now
when i tried to finish up my social studies
and its only 1 pathetic question
1 tat i have done before
and i have forgotten how to do it la
like..i feel disappointed with myself
managed to drag it through

now i do not know if i should go sleep
or find stuff to do
or to find people to talk to; as in on the phone
am like talking online though; to the Birthday girl
haha
she's like sleeping already
cant talk or msg

wat should i do??
i shall think abt it

guess there's nothing much for me to blog abt already
yup

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Friday, April 20, 2007
Time : 7:13 pm

i have nothing much to blog abt today

just tat i felt i was put down

i am sorry guys,
i just din have enough rest
i am VERY sure tat i will be able to run for both events on the actual day
if i did qualify for the finals for the 100m and if we did get in for the 4x100m
and i will put in my best
tat i am very certain

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, April 19, 2007
Time : 10:03 pm

oya
and did i mention tat i got locked out of my room last night when i got home?
its like i tried to open my door
and it just wont open
like happened to other time
so tried solving it the same way
by using the hammer to whack the knob
like dunno whack how many times still cant open it
then dunno why just had the thought to whack it 7 times
after those 7 whacks
the door unlocked
dun ask me why 7
the number just came into my mind
yup
haha

and 7 is a holy number okay !! haha

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 9:32 pm

morning call as usual at 620
got mine at 640
but i lazed till 7 =X
still made it to school on time
just needed to cut down my showering time
haha

chem had test
mcq and q2 could do
but q1 dunno how to do
really got to brush up on my chem
mt did oral practice
recess
then maths
and i was like trying to get some rest but failed too
poa-fell asleep
and the 1 hour seemed so long
dunno why..felt like i slept very long but its like very short only
english- played game
then slacked liao

aft sch had napfa
din really fair tat well

sit and reach - 35 cm
chinup - 5 (i was like trying damn hard to get the 6th la..but..haha)
shuttle run - 10.0 secs (screwed up my first attempt, second attempted was tat good also so gg to retake during pe)
sit ups - 33 (my weakest link, gg to retake also)
standing broad jump - 235cm (if i am not wrong)

i just dun understand why

those 3 stations

aft tat met her

walked ard before settling down

she had to go

so left at ard 445

waited with her

fast fast

haha

then walked home

slacked

talked on the phone

caught a little little bit of sleep

then now on the com

yup

tats abt it bah

<33 !!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Time : 9:22 pm

school was relatively okay today
pe played captains' ball
recess
english; teache nv come so no show and tell
and its like i brought the album to school again la
last week also liddat..sians
maths did some questions
ss went through the sbq(s)
and i got blur, so lost
guess i kinda lost my skills
really got to brush them up

after school had some maths thingy
but i din go
in the end went to ikea with charis
like finally ah..
and she went there just to eat the salmon!! -_-
haha
got bored until we started naming everything tats in green and red
left at abt 430..when the bus like left right in front of us?!
haha
took 22 and i reached home at 5
showered, used the com and all
then left at 540
walked to the stadium bus stop
talked to her on the way
and
saw bus 10 left straight in front of my face
NVM
decided to walk to interchange
and guess wat??
bus 10 left just as i was reaching!!
like within 6 minutes two buses left
was like wth la

caught the next bus
reached ksc at 7
dinnered then bought bubble tea
went to church for discipleship
and like almost everyone was falling asleep
sososo tired
reached home at 11+
washed up and slept at 12
yup

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, April 16, 2007
Time : 7:08 pm

woke up at 6:20
gave morning call to her
got mine at 6:40
din feel like going to school
but still dragged myself out of bed
reached school on time
as usual..haha

SS was okay
english did some proposal
ages since i did one.haha
recessed
had chem practical test
slowly getting a hang of it already
poa- slacked my time away
maths-was catching up with the work that i din do

could not make it for tuition
talked to aunty alice, with sharlene they all
then janice, sally and aunty alice
they were like
eeh..you with sharlene ah?how long liao ah?
then i was like..
No la..haha..not with her..
haha..

no worries k?

<3!!

waited for her outside main gate
but turned out tat her dad reach liao
so walked a bit only then back into school

then janice wanted to see VV
so all went up?
mum wasnt feeling well
so they sat outside
on the stools tat i provided them with; i am kind okay!! haha
then they wanted to see me shower her
also just happened tat i had to shower her also
so showered her los
then this janice wanted to rinse of the shampoo
so okay los..let her
and dun blame me for you getting wet..haha
they left at abt 6

shortly after tat went down to get dinner
ordered 1 packet of fishball noodle $3
dunno how on earth did the person take it as 3 packets $3 de
cooked three packets for me
was like wth !!
cause the other time also liddat
same person some more
fed up!
lucky for them, bro wanted dinner
back home
dinner-ed
then talked on the phome till ard 9+ i think

i am sorry, but i did reply you

tried to do my work

but just couldnt

andand i am just so hooked onto 禱告 now

its just so nice and meaningful !!

slept at ard 12..yup..

Loved !!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, April 15, 2007
Time : 11:00 pm

left home at 0930 with dad only
cause bro wanted to sleep, so he follow mum down los
drum-ed for hokkien service
then out for breakfast alone
me, myself, ipod and hp
bought two slices of watermelon
then back in
drum-ed for main service
felt tat it needed 1 more song
just 1 more song
but i am not the worship leader
so no say

lunch; was quite okay
had watermelon for fruits
and by the time everyone finish taking
i counted, there were 17 slices left
then eugene, bel they all were like
'eeh..17 slices right? for FLIGHTer 17(which is me?)'
i was like 'i try i try'
haha..then they were like video-ing me eating the watermelons..
couldnt eat much..cause had a lot of rice
after tat was busy with some stuff
till at night;
then cab-bed back to catch the F1 in Bahrain
Massa won..whee!! hope this continues
after tat slacked, dinner-ed then continued to slack
yup

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Saturday, April 14, 2007
Time : 7:55 pm

its settled !!

Loved

Date : Friday, April 13, 2007
Time : 11:59 pm

woke up at 620;gave morning call
then i got a morning call at 640
but lazed till 650
then had to rush abit
but made it to school on time
school was okay
did some oral thingy for english
chem i slept for half the period
was tired
then history
had SEQ test
dun think i will pass
cause i can remember nuts abt the European war
due to unforeseen circumstances
i went home
msged awhile
then fell asleep

woke up
prepared and went to meet my bro at tiong bahru
for some CF event
was good..haha
went to mac
and by the time reached home was abt 1 am liao
showered and all
then talked on the phone awhile
yup
tats abt it

okay.

then i have got nothing much to say already

the only thing i can do now is to accept it

as a fact

it hurts

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, April 12, 2007
Time : 10:45 pm

i have already stated why i have no idea why i am avoiding you

and is it the him tat you are referring to?
the him tat i am thinking abt
if so..
din you just told me a couple of days ago
tat you were not together?

i thought all was going well
but...

it will continue to happen
as long as its not clarified

i dun have much to ask
all i wan is just the truth
tats all
is tat too much to ask of?

Date :
Time : 6:56 pm

just got back home
literally walked back home in the rain la

well..got back my transformation test today
three pple got full marks
ryan, weizhi and me
and half of the time during the test
weizhi was asking how to do la..
haha.nvm..

lunched in school then helped steph and yanxiu do the alumni board
for the Founder's Day tomorrow
finished in abt 2 hours?
do until fingers and thumb pain la
haha
then after tat went for a drink

walked back then saw selene
decided to find her
in the end waited with her for her dad
waited for like 1 hr?
haha
wait until it started to rain heavily la
so her dad came and poor me had to walk home in the rain =(

shall go have my dinner now
then wait for call
then hitch a ride down to church for music practice
yup

why on earth am i avoiding you? i have no idea !!

should i or not?

had plenty of chances

but.......

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Time : 11:39 pm

biggest highlight of the day..haha
i passed my 2.4
haha..
first time passed it on my second attempt
might be running next week again to improve on my timing
cause my timing is 13:08
and tat is only worth 1 pathetic point?haha
and also did broad jump
marcus jumped a 250 la
not once, but a couple of times
for me max was only 230
good enough for me
yup

brought the album to sch for show and tell
in the end dun have la
then think got to bring it next week
maths had transformation test
could do all except tat i forgot how to find the invarient line for shear
and i mixed up (2,0) and (0,2)
should be able to get full marks bah..haha

ss, still cant believe tat she finished up 1 chapter in like 45 mins?
haha

aft sch wanted to study de
but the study area was too noisy
so slacked at auntie alice there
talked, with janice, sharlene and sally
haha.

then went to canteen
saw yanxiu and raquel
slacked awhile then headed home with yanxiu

home..washed iup and changed and all
left home at 1740
caught the bus to church
met up eugene, bro and helen sis for dinner
then to church for discipleship
finished at abt 2230?
then came home

guess tats my day..haha..

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Time : 11:54 pm

sorry if you find me too emo
but tats the way i am
letting it out is my only way;
i guess
yup

Date :
Time : 11:44 pm

i wasnt thinking much abt the issue
until tat nice little phone call came along
questions were raised
so too were my emotions
its a fact tat i have not accepted it as a fact
clinging on to something tat it seems tat its not there at all
maybe its really time to loosen my grip
and let it go
it seems easy when its in words
but when it comes to doing it...
i really have no idea how am i going to do it
but i have to do it
unless it changes
which i doubt it will happen

i may look okay on the outside
but deep in;
i am struggling
on the verge of breaking down
just totally moodless
dun feel like doing anything
just totally stare and stone

i am really affected by it
really; i am

Date :
Time : 6:56 pm

alright..
i flung my chinese test
got 17/50
highest was 30/50
three pple got it
but i told ms lum tat i din have enough time to study as it was too much
so she was understanding
yup
heh

history was o-k-a-y
dunno wats wrong with her
teaching and stopping and then start to teach then stop again
well..at least i did my part in answering her questions
cause i was sitting right in front of her..heh
mt did the test and someone walked past..haha.
you know who you are..
then was recess

as usual..slacked at aunty alice there
going to be my usual spot for this year i guess
just dun wanna mix ard with them
and be influenced
guess they just dun understand it

poa- ben came in and relief
then lifeskills
had the cme project presentation
was not bad
had a good laugh
and today's physics past quite fast
maybe due to the fact that we were given worksheets to do
yup..
and vince koh totally screwed me up today
the way he taught the probability ah
can die la
got me all mixed up
i ask him if its times or plus
and when its plus, he told me its times
when its times, he told me its plus
like..NVM
at least now i am clear
can do the questions..

lunched with glenys
she ate half of my pizza!! haha
nvm..its alright
then chinese remedial.
got so bored until i had to msg pple AGAIN !! haha
finished then went down to canteen to do homework
till abt 5pm..yup

then home-ed..yup..

acted like nothing happen?hah

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, April 09, 2007
Time : 5:40 pm

oh
and did i mention tat i found my ipod?
haha
it was like in my pants
blur me
haha

Date :
Time : 5:29 pm

so nearly wanted to pon school today

and tuition also
but i some how forced myself out of bed to go wash up
and before dad left
he passed me two sets of cd to pass to my tutor
which means i have no choice but to go

reached school on the dot
today sch past quite fast
nothing much happened though
just that there was some 'movement' going on
haha..shant eleborate on it

tuition was pushed back to 3pm
instead of the usual 2:30pm
so did tuition work
cause i haven been studying for the past week..heh =X
did till 2:40pm
thought could catch the bus
but it came at like 3pm
but reached there within 5 mins
so was okay

but i started stoning during tuition
like 30 mins in la
was so bad tat i had to msg pple to keep myself awake
keep on writing the wrong symbols and numbers
brain totally wasnt working much

so tutor decided to let me off on the dot even though i was late
heh..thanks..so back home now
tests tomorrow
sian
got to study
cramp 1 whole term of chinese into my brain in just a few nights
how can i be possible?
so dun blame me if i flung it

-if only i am given a second chance

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 12:11 am

Jealous is the word now

i feel so..
not say unwanted, and yet unwanted
disturbed
dun feel at ease of wats going on

i just do not know how to describe it
those few words
small words, hugh impact

or maybe in other words;
its 'game over' for me
there goes my 'last life'

Date : Sunday, April 08, 2007
Time : 1:31 am

now i am screwed again
cause i have no idea where did i put my nano last night
when i came home
cant remember did i leave it on the floor not at the bb court
sian..hopefully its in the house

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Saturday, April 07, 2007
Time : 3:40 pm

i just screwed myself
and its real bad
its all screwed up
all because of the word 'emotions'
damn the word

Date : Friday, April 06, 2007
Time : 11:34 pm

had service this morning
woke up at about 9 am; and left at 930
worship was simply fantastic
up till now still cant believe the way i played the drums
Woah !!
haha..
two and a half hour service
finish then lunched

2pm; started the music practice for this sunday
Esther Sunday
was too good
some people were just going over boundaries
wanted to explain some stuff; but just din listen
personally felt that practice wasnt enough
so dun be too shock if the worship this week is screwed up
just wat is happening?
praying for a change in the team
instead..wat has happened?
shall just leave it to GOD

finished then slacked in the canteen
waiting for time to pass
then parents and dk, rj and hs left
so i went off also with gene
tat was abt 5
decided to play awhile
1 hour..kept to the word
14-ed alone down to city hall
mrt to somerset, collected my ipod usb power adaptor
(which i just remembered tat i left it with yanxiu..haha)
then back to city hall and waited for the rest in which i reached at 19:10
jon.lim and william reached at 19:20
then peter came
and here's the best part
at abt 19:25 got a phone call from yanxiu
and guess where was she and steph..
they were still at tampines la..
like thanks ah..haha
then the rest reached at abt 20:00
ms azlinda, sam, raq, tiff, christopher, fid, ashraf.a, jasmine
then after tat glenn, sabrina, kumares met us at makansutra..haha
dinner-ed then went to city link mall..slacked..cause starbucks had not enough space

at 23:00+ decided to go home
caught the train, but a few pple din get in cause was too full
and they were left at the station
so alighted and waited for them
reached tamp, walked with yanxiu, tiff and peter till central park
then went seperate ways
as usual; walked her to her level
then went home. surprisingly din get scolding
hope it stays tat way
yup

guess tats abt it..yup..lazy to post the pics..heh..

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Thursday, April 05, 2007
Time : 1:32 am

sorry..but i haven been blogging much lately.
should i say i have been lazy?
or just dun have the mood to blog?
well..actually its both..yup..
so forgive me..heh.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Monday, April 02, 2007
Time : 7:25 pm

i have no idea why recently i have just been just plain bored
and its really plain bored..dunno what to do..
and even if i have found some stuff to do..i am still bored..

not only tat, been getting easily sleepy also..wanting to sleep in school but resisted it
and when its only 10+ at night
i can just fall asleep?
and normally i can stay awake till like 11+

just wat is wrong with me?
lethargic all of a sudden..

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date : Sunday, April 01, 2007
Time : 9:39 pm

perhaps i was just over reacting?
i am just being too sensitive
in tat case just ignore the previous post
maybe theres some improvement?
shall just wait and see..

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson

Date :
Time : 9:10 am

it has since been 1 week
you have asked me abt it
and yet i see no changes
i have tried initiating it
but it doesnt seem to be working
wat else can i do?
you tell me
i really do not want this option to be closed

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson