My mind is blank right now, but yet I've still got the urge to blog.
This might yet be another random post.

School has been its best and it's worst so far
The saves of assignment that come and go together
The super mundane lectures every Monday
The stupidest thing that I can do during tutorials
Something as simple as taking a short nap on a sofa during tutorial can lead to a comment thread of at least 40. Something as stupid as spilling teh peng in a studio during lecture, having to clean it up and have your lecturer calling me auntie and uncle and classmates calling me juxiang, uncle huang and auntie huang.

At times, I really wonder what do I really want in life, what do I want to achieve; who do I want to be.
And what are the answers that I come up with?
See how it goes. Don’t know. Can’t get this, nvm. Life goes on.

And right now, I'm questioning myself, am I going to live by those answers?

Through my 19, coming 20 years of my life. I would dare say that there is only one particular thing that I’m really interested it.

Photography.

Throughout my primary school and secondary school days, it has always been soccer, soccer and more soccer for me.
Some how it just seemed like, I went to school for the sake of going to school, for the sake of seeing my friends.
I didn't know what was I studying for.
PSLE was like just a normal exam to me, nothing big.
N Levels was, what? Just to get me into Sec 5 to take my Os. At least I knew that I did not want to go to ITE
First attempt at Os. Should I say, there was nothing that was motivating me to study for? It was like I knew what course I wanted to get into but I just didn't have the motivation to study.
Second attempt at Os. The results from my first attempt brought me back to reality. The fact that I failed to get into any polytechnic got me worried. All these just came together and motivated me to work hard.
18 points was what I got.

My dad bought a dslr. Mind you, that was 3 years back. Damn expensive.
To tell the truth, it was the first time that caught my interest. I just got pulled into it so deep.
I knew that I knew nuts about how a SLR worked.
I knew I knew nuts about photography.
But some how it just worked out all for me.
Bringing it for church camps and outing, plus asking people. It gave me the exposure that I needed.

Really. The first first hand experience that I had was my church camp a 3 years back. My dad just told me to take photos for the camp, and I accepted it.
Then I would say the 'major break' came for me.
And that was my brother managed to get me to cover for the first Anglican Chinese Youth Camp 2 years back, as he was in the committee. Those 3-4 days that I spent taking photos and everything taught me plenty. I explored the functions and my interest just got deeper.
Using the photos that I took during the camp, I applied for FSV-NP through jpsae. Got my portfolio up, went for the interview, got interviewed and waited for my results.

In the end I got it.
Its like even right up till now, I still wonder.
Where would I be if my dad did not get the camera?
Would I even have developed such a strong interest for photography?
I guess I'll prolly be in NYP - studying Motion Graphics and Broadcast Design
But it wasn’t to be.

All the opportunities that I had, shooting for events and all, came looking for me.
Knocking on my door.
Never once have I gone out chasing and looking for them.

After the Chinese Youth Camp that I covered;
-Student Career Fair at Suntec City [CITY Community Services] - yet again, it was my brother who pulled me in
- Student Career Fair at Gan Eng Seng Primary school [CITY Community Services] - yet again, it was my brother who pulled me in
-Piano Concert@YMS Art Centre [my church member approached me]
-Conference@YCCA [my dad's church]
-Wedding+Wedding Dinner [Dad's Church member]
-BB&GB Enrolment Service [CITY Community Services]

the frequent photoshoots that I have. For camps, gatherings, festive seasons and of course assignments.

But it really was my latest opportunity that I'm really shocked/surprised/happy about.
It all just happened so fast. Yesterday, my schoolmate asked me if I was free today from 12 -4pm today.
He was going to host the SI auditions at Cathay and he wanted me to cover him for the whole thing.
So today I was at Cathay, 12-4pm. walking around taking photos, covering and following him when he was hosting. It was like all around me were professionals from Mediacorp. I had a couple of weird stares from them, but I just ignored them, not to mention, it was weird seeing a lot of people from FMS there. Be it helping the cameramen with the log sheets or interviewing those who were going for the auditions.

It just became a great experience for me, knowing how everything works and all. Like I was telling my friend, "things do not seem like its done this way, but rather another way. That kind of thing".
It’s just really how things are being done.


Well, life does not seem as simple as it maybe.
However simple you think it maybe, complications come your way.


To end it off, being able to keep this and have these few photos taken really made my day and week.
Of course there are other things that made my week, but it'll be for another time.

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