Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Thursday, April 17, 2008
Time : 3:30 pm

had quite a meaningful conversation with my friend last night.

no much details shall be said, but somehow, it got me thinking.

if i were to be in the same situation, would i be doing the same as to what i have advised my friend to do.

what would my actions really be and stuff.

also at the same time, it got me thinking about my relationship with my parents, brother and God.

the occasional arguments that we have, sometimes leading to a major argument, involving the whole family, even my dog. she will just hide under the table, knowing something is happening. something bad is happening.

I was posting my first post on my blog for school, at wordpress, and i mentioned this No, I am not saying that I am not holy or what. I guess its just extra tough being a Pastor Kid, when it is tough enough already to be a christian. and now i am just thinking, sometimes i fail as a christian. not to mention being a pastor kid. yes, i am serving in church. in the music ministry, week in week out. but it dawned upon me that just serving God isn't enough. my dad was just 'nagging' at me the other day, asking me if i have been doing my own quiet time these few days. truth is i haven been. i know that it's for my own good, on building my relationship with God, getting to know Him more and be like Him more. But i just dun seem to have the discipline to do that. Maybe if Discipleship resumes, it might help me. i think.

apparently, i woke up late today and so my dad gave me a lift to school. on the way, we nearly had an accident and it was raining. the car that was in front of us suddenly braked. dad reacted to it, managed to stop in time and the next thing i knew was my dad's arm across my body. i was just...speechless. after i alighted in school, i was thinking. it could have been my dad being injured, if there was an accident, had i not put on my safety belt.

its just love. simple was that.

but how have i been treating my parents recently. i am just feeling guilty, on how i have treated my parents and brother. life is just so fragile, so short. and we only have got one life, got to live and use it to the fullest. but at the same time we cannot forget what we are here for, just like what i have told my friend last night. and that is the Great Commission.

All for love a Father gave

For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson