Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Saturday, March 08, 2008
Time : 10:27 pm

happy blur stupid lost relieved dumb blessed

mixed emotions for the past few days.

thursday was my parents' wedding aniversary. 26 years and still going on.
hard to believe that one year ago, my bro and i, we were rushing through the photo montage.
working on it till late at night, early in the morning. for the whole day. and even still working on it when the service was just hours away. great memories though. =)

alright(thursday). i went down to suntec, met bro, helen and bel for the youth camp meeting.

Carl's Junior for dinner.

settled on the timetable, if thats what you want to call it. who and who in charge of what and what, and drafted out a few themes for dk and pastor to choose from. quite a few nice ones.

before my bro and i met bel and helen, we were like just wondering aimlessly around suntec, until i got a phone call from my mum, and she was like

Listen properly, today is our(Mum & Dad) wedding anniversary, and you got a letter from NP. Dad opened it for you

and she started reading this;

Dear Huang Yixi, Vicson
A WARM WELCOME TO NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC

I am delighted to offer you a place at Ngee Ann Polytechnic to study for the Diploma in Film, Sound and Video. (and when i am just typing this, my mum just passed me the enrolment stuff that NYP sent me).

when i heard that, i couldnt believe it. i practically jumped up and down on the spot where i was, right in the middle of suntec!! but, i was just thinking to myself why did they suddenly send me?? did they send by mistake? or did they miss out my name then send to me to let me know?? or did they change their mind?? questions were running through my mind. came home, and was talking to clement, told him about what happened and he was asking me if i got check my jpsae application not. and guess what. I DIDNT!! blur or plain stupid. decide for yourself. managed to check the results of it, and i got accepted into it.
so like what JonE said to me. i spent two to three weeks sulking away at my application result. blah!!

Friday.
stuff happened.
but i am not saying what happened.
you know what happened if you know what really happened.
does it make sense? i think it does. oh wells.
oh, and dun come try asking me what happened.
dun think i am going to tell anyone.
some how, i am feeling happy,yet lost, about what has happened.

oh, anyways, i just received the brochures for the buying of notebooks from NP.
the idea of having a mac makes me go 'wow!'
afterall, clement said this to me yesterday

wahh. i go poly got a mac.. study FSV., i will walk with confidence eh

oh wells =/

went for music practice today. was quite good.
then dinnered with nelson, nellie and their mum.
walked home from tamp st 11, reached my door step. only to realise that i dropped my house key.
where? i do not know. but definitely not downstairs my house.
decided to find my mum, communication break down. talking about the same landmarks, but totally different location. was a little pissed.
got home eventually.

like i was saying, my mum passed me the enrolment stuff from NYP.
and now i have to choose from one.
i know i have been wanting to get into FSV. but now its like, i am afraid that it wont work out for me.
somehow, from the course description of MGBD, i think it suits me more. but i haven been able to see the course structure, on the modules that i have to take. however on the other hand, i have been able to look at the course structure of FSV. some of the subjects i know i will have a little trouble in doing them, thats why i mention that i am afraid that it wont work out for me. maybe someone else wants FSV or MGBD badly, and here i am being lost on which course i should enrol for. i am just in the position where i have two choices, knowing that i WILL benefit from either one. but its just the matter of WHICH ONE will i enjoy more and will work out for me.

on the postitive side, i have two choices to choose from, while majority of other applicants only have one. so for that, i give thanks.

and SOMEHOW, i just, i repeat, i JUST filled up the Form E, which NP sent me, got my dad to sign it, and i just signed on it; which is for the application for Tuition Grant, and the application for my tertiary ez-link card. which i got to send it out by monday and i told my dad that i will send it out by tomorrow.

i will spend the whole day praying about which course to take, cause once i place the envelope for the Form E into the mailbox, i will be heading to NP. For Sure.

or, i was just thinking, is it possible for me to enrol into both courses then decide which to go for? or can i just take two diplomas at the same time? or could they reserve a place for me, till i finish one diploma and ns then i take up the other one?
i guess its just wishful thinking of mine, cause it wont be possible.

Oh Lord, please guide me in choosing which course to enrol for.

was talking to Dawn Ang yesterday, asking her about her A level results and she mentioned this verse to me.
to be honest, a verse that i have long forgotten about. =/

Jeremiah 29: 11

'For I know the plans I have for you, ' declares the Lord,

'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future'

it seems like a never ending post, to me.

full of thoughts and memories, be it happy, sad or just pure stupidity

just not able to express all of them with phrases or words.

but one think for sure, i am feeling more relaxed after getting whatever that was needed to get off my chest.

haven been able to find someone to complain too, to rejoice with, to share happy things with, comfortably. i repeat that. comfortably.

other then someone, and that someone is God.

Amen!

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson