Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Friday, December 28, 2007
Time : 10:54 pm

i am deeply hurt.
i am deeply upset.
i am deeply disappointed.
by your actions, by your words.

i was going to improve on the dates, make more time for you, accompany you on your next dental visit(isn't that what you have always wanted?).
i know i haven been getting you anything, and its not that i do not want to. its just that i am not able too
i know i didn't spend more time with you during the camp, but i had to do my job and that was to take photos and upload them and stuff.
i know we haven gone out many a times, cause i was retaking my Os and i seriously didn't want to screw them up again. and it was you who kept me gg on to study for my Os, when i felt like giving up a few times. those small little words of encouragement did a whole lot to me.
i know that my feelings for you were on and off during a period of time, but i just wanted to settle it after my Os, besides you were having your eoys. but by the time Os ended, my feelings for you were back and it has been there up till now.
i know that you meant alot to me, but i didn't know how much you meant to me, until after the camp.
i realised that you meant a whole lot, a whole whole lot to me, but by then i guess it was too late.
everything has happened.

it's just one day only, but i am starting to feel empty.
emptiness is starting to feel the inside of me.

how i long to hear your sweet voice once again. but its not possible now.
how i long to receive your msg again. but its not possible now.
how i long to have the midnight calls once again, 3 hours, 4 hours, 5 hours. but its not possible now.
how i long to have you in my arms, to embrace you with my love. but its not possible now.
how i long to have another meet up at the usual place, when school reopens. but its not possible now.

despite for the many things not done, i was and i am loving you and i am serious about it even up till now.

I Love You.

FLIGHTer 17^Vicson