Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Thursday, September 07, 2006
Time : 5:01 pm

alright..i am done studying for today..like after wasting 3 days of the holidays..haha..

well..i can blame it on the stress i am having..blame it on wat time i wake upfor the past few days..blame my parents;brother or even friends..but the fact is it all points back to me..its my decision/choice to study or not..and so today..i made the choice to study..(partly due to the fact tat the desktop is down..dad's laptop is not around and there's only 1 slow com to use..heh) ..and so having a sense of satisfaction now..lol..

you know its realli scary when THIS person who is in sec3 tells you tat she is already feeling the pressure of the 'O' level next year..and i was like..if you can feel the stress already..then i should be dying of the stress already la..but thanks to God..i am not dying..lol..but still..she's right..should have felt the stress and importance of the Os long time ago..instead..it took me ages to feel it..even when i took my N level..i took it like a normal exam la..the attitude of 'fail then fail la..can retake wat' was a big mistake of mine..now i come to think of the past..i have actually wasted 1 year of my life when i got transferred into NA when i was going on sec3..while the people from my batch are already now in poly and jc..but on the bright side..its God's plan for me..having placed good frens in my path of life these 3 years..and always having placed me in their lives..you know the initial thought of me being in the NA stream would be hell..thought of isolating myself from the rest of the people for the 3 years..yes..tat was wat i did in the first half of the year in sec3..only talked to people around me..as in practically around me..in front,behind,to my right,to my left only..was having a horrible time..realli..when i was not doing my work..then i will be sleeping..but it all changed..changed for the better..

changed for the better in these two years..teachers and classmates have recognised the contribution i have put into the class..and it feels alot better to be able to express myself normally..all thanks to the good frens tat i have made..esp the 'sisterhood'..lol..and most importantly..all thanks to God..it was them who brought me through a time of misery and sadness whenever i wasnt on good terms with my bro..or with frens or even when my parents arent on good terms..and now to me..the only way i can repay them back is to help them in their preparation for Os while they help me too..and to produce the results tat would make them happy..friends and teachers..and most importantly results tat would bring glory to God..

amen!!

VIc^